Fragments

30th April 2007 (Monday)

10:49am
I look no different from any other day, like the same old me, like the same old cheerful Tricia... but I'm broken into a millions pieces inside... so broken that I dun think anything can fix me up...

Haha... suddenly I thought of Humptey Dumptey

11:37am
I wanna ask him to come back to me, want everything to remain the same. I want him to hear him say he still wants me back... But I'm didn't ask, I wanted it to his decision. But I know it's not... tat's why I'm so broken now...

I remembered hearing my heart shattered, my ears buzzing, my mind becoming a total blank, my whole body going numb... with despair... when I heard him confirm it.

I wanted to scream and kick... to hurt and to blame him... but I know it won't help.

1:50pm
I din wanna think of him, but naturally I did, at lunch time, like every other normal day... I think of whether he'll take his lunch late again. And I want to remind him I'm ard somewhere, thinking of him...

And so I msg him, guilty of my own agenda. I want him to think of me if he's not... I forced him to... OMG! Eddie, I miss you so much... :'(

4:34pm
I cannot concentrate on my work. I checked my hp for msgs at every little sound... I thot I heard it beeped, I really did, but it din... He din msg me afterall...

6:29pm
It's all juz so hard... I mean, I love you, and you said you love me... then why din it equate to HAPPILY EVER AFTER?!?!

Simple quotes that touched my heart..

Sometimes the heart sees what is invisible to the eye.
-- H. Jackson Brown, Jr.

"If you love somebody, let them go. If they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were."

"Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength; loving someone deeply gives you courage."
-- Lao-Tzu

To the soul, there is hardly anything more healing than friendship.
-- Thomas Moore

Boring Life

Was reading through my past posts on my blog and realised time flies... these days I'm too busy with work to update my blog. Or rather, nothing much has happen since I started working. Everyday became a routine. Even weekends become a routine. Nothing exciting happened. Life with EL is also becoming increasingly boring... There's really nothing much to do in Singapore. Or maybe I'm just too lazy to do anything. I'm becoming a LONER~ HELP!!!

Sometimes I wonder, if I disappear from the world, will any of my friends actually realised that I'm missing?

Anyway, I'm looking forward to something happening this coming week... A primary school friend is coming to Singapore for a visit! And because of her, we're organsing a BBQ gathering at Sentosa. Finally something different from all the other (BORING) weeks...