Merry Christmas~!

been quite some time tat i have not update my blog~ heh heh~ juz feeling lazy... SO TRICIA! always lazy.... actually, there isn't much to write abt... basically i'm feeling satisfied this festive season, but somehow dread the idea that year 2005 is gonna reach so soon... blink of eye, another year gone~ sigh!

I'm back in SG since Sunday nite, which is the 19th Dec. Overall my cousin's wedding went on smoothly, joyous event~ But i can't help feeling bored when i was in Malaysia for the 1st 2 days. Had to drive down to the small town's cybercafe to kill time, coz it's juz so freaking boring!! But the last day (Sunday) is fun! Managed to psycho my dad to drive me up to KL for SHOPPING... But then i had to drive back to SG at nite for him~ it's a fine exchange for me, as long as i get to shop~ muahAha... plus speeding through the North-South Highway at nite is EASY n AWESOME... the idea of stepping on the accelerator to hit a speed of 160kph just set my adrenaline pumping ;D

brought a lot of stuff - 2 jeans, 2 pants, 1 skirt, 1 pair of heels, 2 tops and 1 belt for only RM350! i think i'm like a bird there~ "cheap-ing" away... my dad can't stand me though. He thinks i'm wasting money. But hey, if i buy all these in SG, it's more money wasted k!!

Fav Shoe Brand in M'sia: Vincci Fav Jeans Brand in M'sia: Geb

After i came back from M'sia, it's back to work and meeting up my frens. This year, i din do any X'mas shopping. It's not laziness, just lose interest? Dun feel the magic of X'mas anymore... =(

Major Accomplishment: I cleaned up my room on Tuesday! muahahaha~! now i can see my table top~ hooray!! tat's how messy i am... ;P

Met up with Weifun on Tuesday nite. Had a great time hanging out coz i haven't seen her for quite some time... Was supposed to meet all the 4 gals, BUT the other 3 gals last min all cannot make it, coz tuesday happens to be Dong Zhi [冬至]. The festival to eat tangyuan [汤圆]. Hence they all cancelled last min coz they have to have dinner with their family, even though we make the appointment like 2 weeks back~ sigh! I miss them... BUT they're always too busy to meet up! naughty gals!! hmpff! one more time you all put me aeroplane, i dun friend you le la!!

Then Wed nite went to my cousin, Shalon's chalet. She's celebrating her 18th birthday which is on the 23rd. I went one day earlier to slack there. so happy for her~ finally all grown up and can go clubbing without hiding like mouse. LoLz! But the poor gal was sabotage so badly during the birthday itself~ other than the usual cake throwing, cream-on-the-face routine, one of her friends actually pour a whole container of syrup water with ice onto her! hilarious~ POOR GIRL!

My fren, Alex went down as invited and volunteered his photography skills which i think is so sweet actually... He din have to do it, but he did. Alex, i'm not bootlicking here k, i really think it's sweet of you plus the late nite supper session at Joo Chiat Bah Kut Teh store coz i wanna drink soup~ LoLz... Anyway, Alex is highly entertaining when he take photos. He keeping yakking nonsensical stuff~ Then he let me drove his car home when he send me home after the chalet... hmm, rephrase, he sent me home, but i was the one driving! Dun understand why my own dad refused to lend me his car when my fren can trust me with theirs!! MY DAD IS A MAJOR MCP~!! tat's why~ =X

X'mas eve was magical... Just magical~!

Merry Christmas everyone~!!

Going M'sia~!

gng to M'sia for my cousin's wedding now! will be gone till Sunday nite... hope it'll be fun! but from experience, it'll actually be quite boring... Lolz~

alright... mum's screaming for us to be ready now... gtg! will miss SG~ and will miss HIM! *sobsob*

till SUNDAY~! ;)

Desmond = The Kid...

heh heh... a pic of me with my god-bro, Desmond Chien! It's his graduation from police academy~ and i'm glad tat he invited me along~ proud to see him recite the pledge on stage... suddenly all grown-up and i see him in a different light~ looking back, it's been almost 8yrs now... forever my beloved bro!

love ya, bro~!

Desmond and Me

More Pics~!

juz reached home, can't sleep... lazy to write, but still wanna update... so upload some more pics~ keke

few more pics from Ubin trip, this is from Paris's camera!

Paris & Me	Marie, Paris, Me & Pris
Marie & Me

Zouk outing with the frens from Ubin production on Sat~

Me in Paris's spec! i think i look like a teacher~ haha!	Me & Paris~ he's half-drunk already...
Me & Shawn with Paris at the back...	Me & Shawn... i kinda hate my hair leh~ how??

only took a few photos at Zouk, coz the bouncer keep warning us tat we have to keep the camera whenever we take a snap~ haha... actually i'm kinda surprised at our friendship. afterall, we're only working together for such short period... hope we'll hang out more often! :)

Boosting my own EGO!

You Are Fun Sexy You're funny, quirky, cute, and sassy. Guys always have a great time with you, and that alone is sexy. You've got an upbeat, optimistic spirit that totally shines through. Any guy would be crazy to turn you down! What Kind of Sexy Are You?

haha~ doing another quiz again... boosting my own ego~ but it's nice to read the results... muahahaha~! =D

Partying is Boring?

Went to Zouk last nite with a bunch of frens i know from the Pulau Ubin production tat i took part in. enjoyed their company, but it's wasn't exactly really fun. i think i've lost interest in partying? Or is it the place and the music? somehow i feel tat it's noisy, pointless and empty... halfway through the nite, i stopped drinking, coz i juz dun feel like it. and juz sat there to look ard, people-watching~

been trying to find a way to release my boredom and partying's always been the choice if i dun feel like being alone, with loneiness creeping in and all~ coz it juz makes a person physically so tired by the end of the nite tat you can't think much anyway... But somehow, it doesn't work tat way anymore for me~ i rather spend time alone with frens, watch a movie, talk and then go home early and rest... suffering from burnout? haha... i'm juz tired of spending my life this way? humans are juz funny creatures... =)

Shawn was a sport last nite, he was "harassed" by a SEXY, GORGEOUS, GRACEFUL, GAY dancer from The Phillippines... tat guy is all over Shawn~ muahaha... it was juz so funny, the way he teased Shawn when he was dancing~ But Shawn juz played along... interesting eh~ if only we managed to take some photos... ;P

And a gay asked me for my number last nite. I got nothing against gays, coz i have gay frens myself... but i still dun understand why he wants to have my number~ last nite at Zouk, the place we were sitting, we're surrounded by them, openly smooching each other. blame on me being old-fashion or something, but i seriously cannot accept tat... =(

Anyway, i trust Pris to send me the photos we took and then I can upload! =)    alrighty, gng to work now~ running late (again!)

Girl-Next-Door? Am I?

You Are the Girl Next Door! You're caring, warm, and the girl that nice guys want to marry. Uncomplicated and simple, you've got an easy going attitude guys love. But this doesn't mean you're dull - far from it! You're a great conversationalist, and you're an expert at living the good life. What Kind of Girl Are You?

I think the results so corny~ this almost can't be me... accurancy level 50%? LoLz

Selfless Love

A fren gave me this URL today -

http://www.vmaxxum.com/download/kiss_biag_video-kissEchoswirlCom.asf

The song for this video is the Korean version of the song i'm currently playing - Mei You Ni De Mei Yi Tian

A very romantic and nice video! very touching... Seen this quite some time back with someone impt at tat time, brought back some memories too~ been 2 yrs now? i hope YM's doing fine... =)

Happy Birthday Alan!

To find yourself jilted is a blow to your pride. Do your best to forget it and
if you don't succeed, at least pretend to.
       -- Moliere


"If you aren't good at loving yourself, you will have a difficult time loving anyone, since you'll resent the time and energy you give another person that you aren't even giving to yourself."
       --Barbara de Angelis


Learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all.
       -- Michael Masser and Linda Creed


Learn to get in touch with the silence within yourself and know that everything in this life has a purpose.
       -- Elisabeth Kubler-Ross


Live in the sunshine, swim the sea, drink the wild air…
       -- Ralph Waldo Emerson


The quotes above summarized how i've been feeling recently... anyway, i collect quotes~ =)

Finally, i chose to give myself a break, well-deserved one i would think... I won't be working from Thurs to Sat... 3 full days of rest! Hooray~ tat is if i dun lined it up with activities to meet my frens~ coz i've been neglecting most of them becoz i've been so busy WORKING... =P

Happy Birthday Alan~! my beloved brother is 21-yr-old today!! finally the kid is growing up! and tat means i'm turning 23 soon~??

Lip Disco

juz came back from work at Lip Disco. decided tat it'll be my 1st and LAST day working there~ tat place juz dun suit me! I HATE IT THERE~!!! music sucks plus the waitresses there are all fighting for commission. I really dun like to work in such a competitive environment~ =(

thks Ernest for being there the whole nite juz to accompany me~ I appreciate it! coz i really feel very uncomfortable there... it's at Geylang, the moment i walk out of the pub, i feel SICK~! coz everyone is staring~ wat's wrong with those idiots!?!? luckily Ernest is there... thks for sending me safely home~ =)

NEVER AGAIN~!!!

Pulau Ubin Adventure

TIME TO UPDATE AGAIN! to tell on my 5-days adventure in Pulau Ubin~!

i was there for 5 days~ as wardrobe assistant for a short film production under Extreme Productions, for a short film titled "Moving God"~ sounds fun eh? IT IS FUN~!!! a brand new experience for me~ i swear to try all new things if i have the chance, and this is NEW and FRESH~! ;)

basically my main job is to make sure that the talents are wearing the correct clothes for each scene... sounds easy~ but i got to iron all the clothes as well~ like maid? haha... met some interesting talents -> Teo Kiat Sing, Paerin Choa, Majorie and Johnny! Majorie is 85-yr-old and she taught me loads of stuff abt life and skincare~ =P

the stay there is basically comfortable coz i was staying at the Ubin resort~ but it's VERY VERY TIRING! coz every morning have to wake up at 7am and the shoot last till past midnight~ =( plus staying under the sun is energy-zapping~ so i was feeling really exhausted. got sick on wed, think it's food poisoning coz i puke and had diarrhoea... there's lots of HUGE mosquitos, bugs and sand flies~ i was whining away by the last day and abt to throw tantrums coz the time seems to drag by more slowly on the last day~ not as easy as i thot, but overall it's still fun~

I think i'm at my most un-glam look when i was there~ in my specs, cap and got so tan! plus the snoring when i sleep and such~ BUT nobody's complaining, except me i guessed... hahahaha~ ever so vain~

the whole crew is quite young, average age of mid-twenties... got to know a few new frens --> Priscilla, Evelyn, Marie, Shawn, Alvin and Paris (he's a guy!) They are ssooo interesting and funny~ Priscilla laughs like a witch, Paris has the most bites on his legs, Shawn has the biggest ego, Marie is the most helpful, Alvin is the always-brooding-yet-charming guy and Evelyn is the most amazing coz she puts on makeup everyday there~ all ard the same age, so we clicked~ i like all of them!

Priscilla n Me	Priscilla n Me AGAIN~! can see how vain we are?
Xavier, Priscilla, Me n Alvin	Xavier, Alvin, Me and Priscilla... We got nothing to do, so... take pics!
Makeup for Majorie + me being extra	Majorie is the Queen here! 85-yr-old and yet so youthful!
The prettiest of the whole crew there~ Evelyn, Priscilla, Me and Marie. We're the only 4 gals there... =P	Xavier n Me... he's burnt, look @ his peeling skin AND i'm tired, look @ my eyebags!
Marie, Paris, Me n Priscilla... Paris is a GUY~!

after sorting out all the pics, i realised i didn't take a pic with Shawn... i think all of us didn't take a pic with him! coz he's busy~ not becoz we're dao k~

got home on Friday nite ard 12.30am. Thks Ernest for driving me out for supper coz i skipped dinner. was so freaking tired that i fell asleep the moment i reached home and slept till 5pm on Sat~! and i'm so sorry to bail out last min on Mexz and Benson for sat nite's outing, coz i fell asleep at 9pm again... and sleep till Sun 12pm~ like pig eh~ i'm juz tired...

went to work at X-Sq today... quite pissed coz they pair me with Vincent, a newbie today... lots of mistakes and got a headache coz i can't hear myself~! i lost my voice. =( been coughing too much i guessed...

Everything will be better tmr~!

Zen Micro

feeling so exhausted... been working at Sitex for Creative as their Zen girl~ promoting their new product, Zen Micro. there's 12 gals representing the 10 different colours of Zen Micro. quite a visual impact really...

it's was a last min job, they actually called my bro's gf, Kasarina on sat morning 8am++, but then she can't work, so she woke me up and passed me the phone, in my sleepy mode, i talked to Ernest and agreed~ haha! 2 days roadshow, pay's ok... but it's fun... coz he told me, they're gng to bring us go shopping for the attire, meet @ 10am, Wisma Atrium... LoLz! damn rush and we gotta start work @ 1pm... quite a challenge, so i agreed! He came to pick me up, and we barely made it on time... And there goes 2 days~! i gotta cancel all my initial plans for these 2 days coz i gotta work~ =(

Alex came down to look for me last nite and help me chose a router. then we went to Bugis to eat... the Japanese Ramen there is nice! shld try~ then i took a cab home, coz i'm so freaking tired... on my feet for a whole day, stuffed in heeled boots! kaoz!

today, Ernest is kind enough to let me hitch a ride to Expo again. So i was on time~ phew! working with Creative is fun and very welfare~ haha! we're fed every now and then, got loads of freebies to take home and we can take breaks every hour! damn shiok! after work, i shared a cab home with Celia coz she's also working at Sitex...

from mon to fri next week, i'll be at Pulau Ubin working with a fren, Xavier, as his assistant, so i'll be quite unreachable... but i think it's gonna be a brand new experience for me! heh heh~ ;P

will update again when i'm back! juz hope tat i dun get too many mosquito bites~ wish me luck! =D

Quizzes!

How Flirty Am I~?

You are 67% Flirt



How Much of a Flirt Are You?

only 67%? i thought it'll be higher~ but the average is 61% =P

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Am I Attractive~?

You've Got Guys Lined Up Around the Block While your little black book isn't as thick as Paris Hilton's... You get the most dates of any girl you know. It's your whole five star package that attracts men - Your looks, your charm, and your ability tie a cherry with your tongue. Are You Attractive?

And this is NOT true~ i dun have guys lining up for me k!

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What Do Guys Like About Me~!

Guys Like That You're Fun You're the type of girl guys brag about knowing. That's because you're cool, funny, and laid back. You're smart enough to know how to be one of the guys. But flirty enough to know how to make them all want you. What Do Guys Like About You?

okok... i think i agree with this one~ coz i do behave like a guy sometimes...

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What Kind of Date Am I~?

You are a Playful Date

Your dating philosophy?
"Fun first, romance later"
You rather scream on a roller coaster...
Then stare in to some guy's eyes over dinner.

Guys to look for:
Men with humorous profiles and quirky interests.
Sure that business suit guy may look boring...
But if he likes snowball fights, give him a try.

What Kind of Date Are You?


YESH~ of coz fun is impt... there is always laughter when you have fun, and that breaks the ice! ;)

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Wat Kind of Girlfriend Am i~?

You Are A Professional Girlfriend! You are the perfect girlfriend - big surprise! Heaven knows you've had enough practice. That's why you're a total pro. If there was an Emily Post of girlfriends, it would be you. You know how to act in every situation... to make both you and your guy happy. What Kind Of Girlfriend Are You?

practice makes perfect?? applies to dating too? interesting concept eh~

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Why Don't I have Boyfriend~?

You Don't Have a Boyfriend Because You are Too Busy While a relationship sounds nice, you're strapped for time. Whether you're legitimately busy or just making excuses... You don't give men enough of your time. As nice as "instant love" would be, there's just no such thing. Why Don't You Have a Boyfriend

this is quite true too~ but i'm really busy ma! :(

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Am I a Player~?

You Are a Total Player!

Congratulations, when it comes to the game of love, you're a pro.
Not only are you an expert player, you are a highly evolved one.
For you, dating is like a game of chess - with a much happier ending.
And you adeptly alter your moves, depending on who's in the game.


Are You a Player?


no comments on this...

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New Romance, my new fav quiz site~ hahaha! alright~ i'm bored... but this is more fun compared to Word Mojo!

i'm like gng thru PSLE again~

it's mid-week! yesh! actually nothing to cheer abt, but then i know tat sat and sun i won't be working~ so i'm feeling happy and looking forward to it... intend to bring my youngest bro out for good food (he wanna have sushi~) and see X'mas lightings on sat, then joining a Diabetes Walk on sun with Angela. gonna be real busy!

tues nite i met up with my fren, Von... went for dinner at Chinatown. made me realised tat there's lot of GOOD FOOD at places tat i'll nv visit...   =P then we made an impromptu decision to go KBOX~ hahaha! he's the only fren i know tat can rap for both chinese and english songs... not a single word wrong de.   ;D

then went to work yesterday, X-Sq in the afternn then Riviera at nite. Got to know from Riviera's colleague tat Joe was there on tue nite... amazingly small world~ or is it juz SG?

met up with Anthony for lunch at my market area and as usual, updating each other abt wat's been happening... or is it bitch abt life? haha~ was telling him abt my love life or rather lack of. LoLz~

He's a great buddy~ and i was complaining to him abt the state of my mobile phone. quite pissed off with the fact tat Jeffy made my phone all chipped when i lend it to him... alright, i volunteered to exchange with him, coz he can't use camera phone in camp, but i think the least he can do is take care of it. BUT it's all chipped... (-_-") guessed i have to get a new phone soon. i can't stand the sight of my stuff in a bad state... gonna be another sum of money gone   ;(

anyway, today i helped my youngest bro choose his sec sch. He juz got his PSLE results and he's having a hard time choosing schools. He seem so bochup tat i worry abt him... i hate his irresponsible behaviour, but then i feel tat it's becoz my parents never allow him to be independent! so not really his fault~ in the end, i forced him to sit down and review all the possible schools with him. his choices are so limited coz his results is really quite bad~   :(   I hoped tat he can get into the schools we chose together...

i feel tat it's VERY impt to go into a good sec sch... at least one with good discipline, else will mix with bad company easily, coz i seriously think at this age, having the right friends is very important... peer pressure is always hard to fight. although it really boils down to his own character but choosing the right environment will definitely help~ like i'll always be grateful tat i went into Commonwealth Sec... although i've always gave my teachers problems, but i know i never really turn wild coz the sch is strict with discipline... if i were to go to another sch, god knows wat i'll become now.

i wish KONG WAI LAP good luck~!

Ravings abt Joe

yesterday i went to an interview @ Shaw House, Beach Road... as usual i was late, but the interview went thru smoothly even though i think they're pretty inexperienced. after tat i went down to work @ X-Square. rather boring, but received an invitation from a regular customer to join him and his frens for X'mas party. X'mas is still so far away~!!

Dinner was yummy~! everyone shld try the Indonesian grilled food store at Plaza Singapura's foodcourt! i had the grilled cuttlefish set and bought extra fish soup~ i think i'm a glutton... =X

went to meet my fren, Joe after work @ IndoChine, Wisma Atrium for some catching up coz he's leaving SG on wed nite... god knows when will he be back in SG again. He's a Japanese model who's staying in Hong Kong, gotta know him some time back when he was here in SG for some modelling job. Anyway, i find him good-looking and really charming, and i decided to post his pic~ LoLz...

Joe Nakamura

looks like Stephen Fung in this pic	looks like Fang Zhong Xin in this pic

actually when i first know him, i nv thot we'll keep in contact after he left. But he's pretty sweet, calls me when he leaves SG and when he was in HK. Told me he'll be back in SG again, and when he's back, he calls me again... tat's how our friendship goes, i never do the contacting, coz sometimes i feel tat it's no point? haha~

he came back to SG abt one and a half month ago. called me then, but i was busy then (with sch/work/Jeffy) so we din meet up, then finally we met up on the Singapore Face finale @ dbl0 coz he happens to be in tat area...

i find him so interesting tat i decided to talk abt him here... Joe's a SILLY man who sticks his own phone number at the back of his mobile, coz he can't remb his number (so like a boy!) Used a GREEN piece of paper with blue ink so tat it's not so visible coz he's afraid pple can peep and know the number when he dun wanna give them his number... duhz! plus he thinks he's smart coz he sticks transparent tape over the paper for protective purposes... hahaha~ though it's pretty dumb, but i find it CUTE~

he likes to play arcade games, when you see him play, he behaves juz like a little boy, getting so excited, and dun wanna leave the place... He was telling me abt his job, the pple he knows and i find it fascinating! i guessed it's becoz he's my 1st fren who's a full-time model (consider international?). He's on Men's Health magazine cover, December issue, and so i bought the mag~ i'm dumb i know, a little infatuated as well..

anyway, enuff of him... till he comes back again...

did a swop of work schedule with my cousin, Shalon today, so tat i can rest at home... but it's not exactly resting la, i got stuff all lined up, gotta finish cleaning up the hse, coz my parents will be back from KL tonite... so sianz, no more peace. I like to stay home alone... and these few days is heaven, nobody disturb me, nobody nags... FANTASTIC!

Red Wine is Medicine

i'm feeling much better now~ i think RED WINE is medicine. haha!

i went out with Alex after work last nite... had a great dinner at 鼎太丰 (Ding Tai Feng) @ Paragon, consisting of XiaoLongBao, double-boiled chicken soup, egg fried rice with shrimps and stir-fried spinach~! *yum yum* i happen to enjoy Chinese cuisine a lot. after the fulfiling dinner, we went on to Thumper to chill~ ordered a bottle of red and juz sit there and talk... SO NICE~

amazingly, after the outing last nite, i recovered from my sore throat, flu and fever... SO there, RED WINE IS MEDICINE~! either tat or Alex is such great company tat i got well? ya right dude, i know you'll be reading this... hahaha~   =P  but i woke up late for work again today. sighz! was feeling quite irritable from working and lack of sleep, but luckily i got out of it... came home early to rest tonite, coz i know my body desperately need the rest. heez~   ;P

Finally the Canon assignment is over~ been standing for 6-7 hours straight everyday for these 3 days coz i was giving out flyers for them during the "International Sound and Sight Exhibition" @ Le Meridien Hotel. But i'm not complaining, coz pay's good...

A lot of my frens are curious abt exactly wat i'm workin as and how come i keep "changing" jobs. actually i din keep "changing" jobs, i juz happen to have a few part-time jobs, plus i'm always workin for short assignments, like 3-days events, promotions and such... so it seems like i keep having different jobs. so there, now you know~   ;)

Sick... again!?!?

i'm sick again~ sigh! checking on my little organiser, i realised it's like exactly a month since i fell sick the last time... like a monthly routine to be down with sore throat, flu and fever. wat's the heck is wrong with my immune system?!?! perhaps i shld really invest in Vitamins~ :P

woke up to have some water coz throat was so dry tat i keep coughing. got like 6 msgs asking me how come i'm not out tonite~ Velvet, Zouk, Chinablack or supper? maybe becoz it's how i spent my usual friday nites for the longest time... but i made the decision to come home and rest tonite even though i would very much prefer to be outside partying... gonna be working whole day tmr, so i reckon i shld rest. Mexz said i'm working too hard, read up NJ's comment and he thinks i'm draining myself... thkz pals!

haha~ but somehow, i rather be working my ass off this holiday, earn the money and spend all i want, then to scrimp and save, plus feel miserable coz i'll be constantly broke... it's been a long long time since i have some extra to do some shopping for myself, and i'm glad tat this holiday, i managed to buy some stuff to pamper myself~ i'm juz whining coz i'm feeling tired, but the money factor will keep me going...

i can feel my pulse constantly beating, and with every beat, i can feel the strain... weakness... i'm gng back to bed.

Rough Stretch

You've come upon a Rough Stretch.



Can you make it through? You've come upon hard times.
Things aren't looking so good to you and your life has
seem to collapse into a downward spiral. You've lost
your way and can't seem to find the right path to take.
You are probably depressed and feeling lonely as you've
lost sight of those who love you. You may wander through
this road with a few others like you and are able to
comfort them as they comfort you, but it is not enough.
You've lost something, maybe someone close, and with it
you lost your faith in life. You're probably confused and
unsure what to do next. But the way will become clear
eventually. It always does. This stretch that lies before
you seems never-ending and not worth traveling. But don't
let yourself fall, you may have stumbled upon this, but
pick yourself up as best you can and hold on to that
little bit of faith you have. The road isn't as endless
as it seems. All things, good and bad must come to and
end. This too shall pass and you'll be amazed at what
good lay beyond it if you just find the strength within
yourself to try and make it.


What Path Do You Take In Life?
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Riviera Pub

had a long day. woke up late again today, and dad sent me to work... he took the opportunity to lecture me on the journey there. he's concerned abt the amount of time i spent working and out with my frens, neglecting my health and getting so little sleep everyday...

I know he cares, but i raised my voice anyway. retorted rudely~ coz i'm really tired of them not understanding... I'm working coz i dun have enuff cash, trying to earn enough so that i dun take from them... can't they try and understand?!?! i'm holding like 3 jobs this holiday. i'm exhausted too~ if possible, i dun wanna work too and concentrate on my studies, but can i? I can't coz i'm trying my best to be less of a financial burden! sigh~

started my first day of work at Riviera Pub @ River Valley Rd today. it's along the stretch of road near the 7-eleven at Mohd Sultan... my dear frenz, if you're free, can go down there and support me. it's something i always wanna try out, but some frens were against the idea of me working in a pub, so i placed it at the back of my mind... but now, i guessed, i juz wanna do the things i like...

juz chatted with Jeffy online... i still dunno where are we heading~ perhaps i'll know soon. i do wanna be sure instead of juz wondering. gotta work again at 10am tmr... gonna go rest, it's a long day tmr as well...

The Incredibles!

The Incredibles!


juz reached home from a movie - "The Incredibles" It's simply incredible! I recommend it to everyone~ it's super funny and way COOLz!



Fav Character: Violet


my favorite character got to be VIOLET~ her primary powers are Invisibility and Force Field, and her secondary power is Agility...

can become invisible whenever i want~ tat'll be so nice! can spy on whoever i want if they wanna bully me! or when i wanna bully them? like hit them on the head?! hahaha~ anyway, thanx ah gong for sending me home~ =D

had a long day, overslept today and was late for work, coz i'm so freaking exhausted~ tmr gotta work again... i reckon i better rest early... gd nitez everyone! AND WATCH THE SHOW... heez~ =P

Dying Love

I got this poem from a friend's bulleting in Friendster, find it somewhat really touching... and so there you go...

Dying Love
This burden lies heavy on these shoulders.
When the light in life has cease to shine.
Thinking about it makes the hurt grow so strong.
Wishing one could go back and right every wrong.

Love is now angry with what she herself knows.
And one heart's been torn open by the thorns of the rose.
Love is a strange thing It is seen through bright eyes.
But resisting is futile when love wants to die.

To where can one go and who can one turn to?
For a shoulder to rely on because one still love another.
One said love is not everythng. Yet, in the life
that one lead love rules like a king.
But what can be done when push comes to shove

What can be done to save one dying love...

Relief

it's 4am in the morning... i still can't sleep~ haha! juz finished with a phonecall from Travers. He told me not to write abt him, but i still will... =P    been really busy these few days~ at first was busy with DPP project. after it's over, it was juggling my time between work and friends...

Had my DPP presentation on Wed morning! It was coolz! all the other group are so creative, and everyone was all dressed up to impress... there's one group which present their project like news broadcasting... It's really original and the videos tat they took (like they're interviewing the public) are really gOod! I'm glad it's all over, semester over means holiday starts! gotta work hard and try to earn more money! next semester end, we'll be going to Australia campus for an exchange program, will spend a lot of money for tat trip... sigh~

After the presentation, i went to work at X-Sq... after work, i went to join Weng Kin, Weichong, Angela and her fren, Aaron for KTV! freaking tired~ but i had fun singing~ WC said i got a voice like a barbie doLL~ kaoz! others pls comment! hahaha~

Slept in the WHOLE DAY~ best way to spent holiday! heez... my dad came in at 5pm and asked me whether i'm dead, coz i'm sleeping like a log. haha! i feel so rested, which is exactly wat i need...

went to the Motorshow with my family in the evening... not tat interesting though~ there's nice cars, but not very extensive. i took a lot of photos~ Saw a few frens there... was surprised to see Alex! was nice seeing him today~ thot of meeting up after dinner with my family, but my dad expressed wish tat i go home early, so being such a good girl (ya right!), i came home instead~

I've been clubbing so much tat i'm pretty sick of it! how ar? but if i dun go, i'm bored at home~ sigh~ dilemma...

i'm going thru a rough patch, and i'm glad tat i have wonderful frens ard me! but dun worry, i'll be fine... nothing is really tat bad i guessed, life goes on. I won't be too upset. as Weichong says, making a decision can be a relief actually. =)

perhaps it's not such a bad thing. after all, i've been thinking abt it myself... Now juz have to make things clear. =)

Mind Games Woman Play!

I leeched this from Weng Kin's website! Like it so much~ hahaha.... is this how all females think?

10. The Waiting Game. You called her and, although you usually don't do this (or at least you shouldn't), you left a message for her to call you back. Hours or even days may pass before she returns your call.

9. The Bait Game. The "I think I look fat in these pants... do you?" scenario is a tricky situation. Asking for your opinion is important to her; she wants to make sure that you find her desirable. But by framing the question as an effort to validate her own opinion, she's baiting you into jamming your foot into your mouth.

8. The Playing Dumb Game. This happens when she doesn't want to do something. To get you to take care of it, she'll play the "I don't know how to do that" angle. The task might be programming the TiVo or installing some software. More than likely she knows how to do it, but just doesn't want to.

7. The Hard to Get Game. This isn't always just a matter of her trying to present herself as a challenge. Some women will hold back feelings if there is an emotional risk involved. She could be testing the water before she dives in, as she needs to make sure that you're worth the risk.

6. The "We Need To Talk" Game. This game usually begins when you're watching some major sporting event, like the Super Bowl. Once again, she's testing you and trying to see where your priorities are. She needs your attention and she wants it now.

5. The Trading Goods for Services Game. She'll often take advantage of this game when sex is on the line. She implicitly offers to give you sex in exchange for something she wants you to do. There aren't many women out there who can resist a man who helps around the house, shops for shoes with them or agrees to treat his mother-in-law to dinner.

4. The Reverse Psychology Game. This usually occurs when she says the opposite of what she really wants, hoping you will do exactly what she wants you to do. For example, she wants you to do the dishes, but she doesn't come right out and say it. Instead, she says she'll do the dishes, only you later discover that she's mad at you because you didn't help. Confusing, I know.

3. The Mind Reading Game. This is usually played alongside the reverse psychology game. Fellas, she wants you to read her mind because she thinks that if you really cared, you would know exactly what she wants. Although this is not a logical game, far from it, women still expect you to get them.

2. The Silent Treatment Game. You know you've done something wrong when she doesn't speak to you and gives you the cold shoulder. The thing is you have no clue why she's so ticked.

1. The Ultimatum Game. This is the big kahuna of all games. It happens when the relationship is on the line. She expects something big. Possibly marriage, moving in together or a ring -- and if you aren't ready to take the step with her, she's willing to move on. This may be a bluff or it may not.

although it's subjective whether all women think this way, but I'm SO glad i'm a woman!! muahaha!!!

DPP Presentation

been busy the whole day... in less than 5 hours is my presentation for DPP. I'm exhausted. I spent the whole of last nite trying to finished my part and with it almost finished, i overwrite the bloody file with a old version coz i was CARELESS!!! I got to REDO! sigh~ this is the ONLY time where i'm so bloody careless! shed a few tears, took a cab to sch, borrow the materials needed, took a cab back and REDO~ i'm so angry at myself...

i managed to finished up and pass it to my project mates but i think they're not very happy... hmm, if it's me, i will be. coz i was supposed to send them my part yesterday and i only send it to them today @ 11pm. I can imagine their stress level... ladies, I'm sorry!

I'm not asleep, just in case they need me coz they're still compiling... it was supposed to be my job to compile the report, but becoz of my accident, they're doing it... sigh~ =(

hope everything will turn out fine later...

Mood Analysis Test

I took yet another test from ColorGenics! The result's so depressing~ =(

Mood Analysis Test

At this particular time you are feeling the results of extreme stress and you are seeking a 'way out' but you are pushing too hard. Obviously you need peace, tranquility and contentment. Your temperament is such that you are hoping, unrealistically perhaps, that your desires will shortly be fulfilled (even if at this time you are not quite sure what those true aspirations may be!). how true!!

You haven't been feeling that great lately. Both physically and mentally you are exhausted. To your best friends, those who know you and love you, it shows. Your self esteem has been reduced almost to a minimum and in order to recover - and recover you will - it is necessary that you get away from it all, even if it be only for a few days.

You feel that you should be appreciated far more than you are but no-one seems to care! You feel that you are receiving less than your share and the main problem is that there is no-one to whom you can turn to for sympathy and understanding. The inner stress that you are experiencing makes you quick to take offence but you realize that at this particular moment in time there is little that you can do to relieve the situation.

All of the stress and strains resulting from disappointment have led to agitation and anxiety. You have been going out of your way to make a good impression, but you have reservations as to the likelihood of succeeding. You feel that you have a right to accomplish all that you set your mind on but you have become helpless and distressed when circumstances have gone against you. The idea of failure is most upsetting and this can even mean utter dejection. You see yourself as a scapegoat and you feel everyone in your sphere of influence has tried to take undue advantage of you. You are trying to convince yourself that your failure to achieve standing and recognition is not of your making but indeed of those around you.

Since in the recent past all of your hopes and aspirations have been denied you, you are now convinced that the future will hold nothing but anxiety so therefore 'why bother?' You would love to get away from it all, to escape from the trials and tribulations of this mundane existence and fall into a peaceful and harmonious relationship, which will protect you from the lack of appreciation and give you the chance to start afresh.

Lost.

recently, i've been thinking... i've got no motivation in life, no goals, no ambition... I'm tired of the things i've been doing, finding lesser and lesser joy everyday. i'm always feeling tired and never really felt happy. i no longer find joy in doing the stuff which i thot makes me happy. more so, i find it depressing... Everyday is so mundane... Plus i have the tendency to lose myself in alcohol these days... why have i become like this? and when did all this start to happen? i can't seem to pick myself up... sighz~ Now and then, i get into this mode of depression and needs time to get out of it. and when i get myself out, soon, i'll fall back in again. it's like a cycle~ nobody really knows, nobody really understands... i'm feeling so lost~ i hope i'll find my way soon...

Annoymous

was contemplating whether to blog tonite, coz i have nothing really interesting to share. But oh well, i decided to... since i got time on my hand and not sleepy YET.

Was wondering why people leave comments under "Annoymous" in the internet. I mean in the cyber world, isn't it enuff tat a person is faceless? why would he/she wanna be nameless as well? How can we tell one Annoymous from another Annoymous? If it's me, i'll leave behind my initials, pseudonym, or maybe juz a nickname. Juz so tat the person reading wat i wrote knows how to differentiate me from the others~

maybe becoz i'm attn seeking? I wouldn't want another Annoymous to be mistaken as me! I like the unique identification tat i represent! which is why i hate it when pple ask wat's my name repeatedly... LoLz~

A fren told me abt a comment tat was left on my blog coz he finds it quite crude. (anyway pple, it's under my entry titled [weird dream]) I went to read it and my reaction was, "hmm, interesting. loser." And then i forgot abt it. And then another fren asked me abt tat comment again. Then I went to read it again, then this time round, i ask myself, "am i supposed to be angry?" haha!

I mean, wat he/she wrote dun provoke any kinda strong emotions in me. I dun usually take cyber things like this seriously, so.... i wonder why i shld have reaction. I asked my fren, WK abt this and he finds it amusing as well.

Interpreting tat comment, I realised i've always feel tat nobody wants to marry me! hmm, isn't it strange? haha~ And he/she said I'm an ugly duckling... SO I MUST BE A SWAN NOW~ awww, thanks! =) i never thot i'm really pretty with or without makeup~ i'm juz so comfortable with myself... it's not really confidence, juz total comfort with my face and body, always thankful for my parents for giving birth to me! but ugly duckling means he/she feels tat i look pretty with makeup~ and i'm glad to know tat... ;D

If my future husband were to see me without makeup ONLY after our wedding nite~ then it's really an ARRANGED MARRIAGE le~ LoLz~!! kaoz, else how come never see me without makeup before de~ not possible lor! so ignorant and naive to even think this way, dun you think? haha~ anyway, in order not to surprise my future husband-to-be, i'm showing pics of me, all natural~ this is the REAL me ok! dun be shocked on the morning-after! LoLz~

AMUSING~!!

ALL NATURAL~ it's not tat shocking...
with no makeup, my face dun rot away~ how amazing! LoLz~ =D

Colorgenics Psychological Analysis

Took an interesting test today. Maybe you pple shld try it too~ i find it quite true!

Colorgenics Psychological Analysis

Your Mood: At the moment you want to reach out and make contacts with others. You are feeling friendly inside and others around you will unconsciously pick up on this. You want to connect with people and be sociable.You feel the need to make some quite dramatic changes at the moment and are frustrated by specific conditions in your life, this can make you irritable and frustrated. You want change and you want it now.

Your Present Situation: Your current situation isn’t challenging you at all. You are set in a routine and the result is that you’re feeling boxed-in and closed off. You’re craving freedom, yet you’re unaware on how to change the present situation. This is causing you to remain in your humdrum routine.You are not prepared to cause a fuss at the moment and really want to get on with others harmoniously. Feeling quite sensitive you are more withdrawn than you let on. You carefully observe the behavior of those around you and sometimes dislike what you see.

Your Conflicts: You have no conflicts at the present time

weird dream

i had the weirdest dream last nite... funny thing is i can still remember the dream after i wake up! I DREAMT ABT ARRANGED MARRIAGE!

Here it goes:-
my mum arranged a wedding for me, and it was against my wish. I quarrelled with my mum but i was left with no choice, coz i was threaten with the well-being of my mum. I dunno the guy initially. And i was very very unhappy. I screamed at my mum! it goes something like, "I thot i'll be marrying someone i love and someone who loves me back~ not someone you picked for me! some faceless stranger! at least in this century, i thot this will never happen to me! it's like drama, pls tell me it's not real."

Then the scene changed to me choosing wedding gowns, and the guy juz left the place! So i din get to see his face, only his backview~ after that, i see the ROM place... i keep feeling like i wanna cry, but tears dun come coz i'm so sick of the whole thing~

Then, in a twist, i get to see the guy the 1st time...
it's someone i know! (-_-") i'm not gng to tell who, coz i'm still trying to figure out how come it's him~ like totally not possible de...

He looked as lost as me. i remembered calming down the moment i see him, it was a very soothing feeling... then i held his hand and say, "we're getting into a forced marriage, can you believe it?", and he replied, "Don't worry, everything gonna be fine". and he said it with tat super lost face! OMG~! then, it goes on to us living together and miraculously, we were happy together! kaoz~

ok, tat's abt it! so weird! why dream abt arranged marriage?!?! and why tat guy?!?! I bet if i tell him, he'll also think i'm crazy~! hahahaa...................

... study break

yesterday's investment paper =TOUGH!!! confirm kenna slaughtered! but it's over, so let's not talk abt it.

went to ChinaBlack to celebrate the end of my FIRST paper... had fun last nite... outing smack right in the middle of my papers~ muahaha~ i'm so BAD!

Angela jio me, and i started asking a number of pple. Weichong rejected us, coz he wanna accompany gf. actually i think tat's sweet of him, so another time dude! =D Sharolyn have an event today, and wants to rest so she can't join us. Her bf, Benson said since she's working so hard, he shld stay home as well... awww~ another sweet guy!

But nvm them, another Benson (CSS one, my senior! not Sharolyn's bf) joined us~ Then Weng Kin turned up even though Weichong can't make it. Got to know Angela's frens - Sarah, Alicia, Terry etc. Benson's fren, Travers also came down... Benson's little sis was there with her bf. And i met Alan, Aven and Rendy there! haha.... so many pple, so much fun!

2 major highlights of the nite - [1] A guy who danced like William Hung, body coordination all wrong! everyone is cheering him on coz he's such a joke! and you can see tat he's totally enjoying himself~ but he commands the attention of all the clubbers there... so at least he's something~
[2] This freak actually came up to the platform to dance with me! kaoz~ luckily i'm in good mood, entertain him for a while...... and everyone is looking~ yucks! then i scrambled off~

Was mentally exhausted when i went in, after all the fun~ no stress! but i still have 2 more papers to go! gotta continue mugging~ wish me luck! ;)

... study break

probably shldn't be blogging now, but i think i need a break... from all the investment, CML, CAPM, SML, beta blah blah blah~ sucks!

i've got like a month-long study break, but i started only yesterday... I'm not procrastinating becoz i'm lazy, neither becoz i think i'm smart... i'm juz losing direction... perhaps the study break shldn't be so long? blame it on SIM...

Oak, thanx for the midnight "soup + honey + redbull" delivery... the gesture is sweet, but perhaps you shld take the time to sleep more instead?

i've got less than 7hrs left before the paper. i've yet to cover even 4 topics. i deserve to fail? shld i just take MC tmr? irresponsible i know... but i suddenly hope i'm down with chicken pox or something...

back to mugging... (-_-") ciaoz~!

Wat my name means...

T You have an attitude, a big one.
R You are a social butterfly.
I You are always smiling & making others smile.
C You definitely have a partier side in you, don't be shy to show it.
I You are always smiling & making others smile.
A You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.

K You like to try new things.
O You are very open-minded.
N You like to work, but you always want a break.
G You have excellent ways of viewing people.
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Legend:
A You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
B You are always cautious when it comes to meeting new people.
C You definitely have a partier side in you, don't be shy to show it.
D You have trouble trusting people.
E You are a very exciting person.
F Everyone loves you.
G You have excellent ways of viewing people.
H You are not judgemental.
I You are always smiling & making others smile.
J Jealousy.
K You like to try new things.
L Love is something you deeply believe in.
M Success comes easily to you.
N You like to work, but you always want a break.
O You are very open-minded.
P You are very friendly and understanding.
Q You are a hypocrite.
R You are a social butterfly.
S You are very broad-minded.
T You have an attitude, a big one.
U You feel like you have to equal up to people's standards.
V You have a very good physical and looks.
W You like your privacy.
X You never let people tell you what to do.
Y You cause a lot of trouble.
Z You're always fighting with someone.

What kind of blogger are you?

You Are a Life Blogger!

Your blog is the story of your life - a living diary. If it happens, you blog it. And make it as entertaining as possible.

What kind of blogger are you?

horoscope fun~

extract this horoscope thing from a friend's bulletin in Friendster.. I'm born in March, so i only extract March~ hahaa

How true is this? Up to my dear friends to comment... =P

MARCH:
Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

when he leaves...

My parents are off to Malaysia to attend my cousin's wedding, but i stayed in SG coz i gotta prepare for exams...sitting in front of my computer in complete darkness, with nobody at home... The silence is killing me... i tried putting on music but it still feels so quiet without anyone at home...

Was on the phone with Celia for a longest time... Today i find her suddenly a lot more grown -up... at times, i find her fussy and demanding, hence a little irritating, and she knows it herself as well. But today she seems different, perhaps it's her beau's influence...

When i was chatting with her, she saw Jeffy online. They had a short online conversation and Jeffy was telling her tat he's at Shanghai, travelling, having fun and networking with his mum...

There's this nagging thought at the back of my mind for the longest time. Am i ready to see him go off overseas and work? Until now, he never really share his plans with me. I've got no idea whether he's still gng to Shanghai to work after ORD. Am i ready to see him go? (if he is really going) Only a few more weeks left before he's officially released from his NS liability.

I know tat he will be gng to Shanghai to work after his NS even before we got together. he told me tat he's only back in Sg for a short period. it's in his goals in life, to travel around and work in different countries, learn more, experience more... But i feel tat i might not be able to accept the fact.

Before he's back from the states, i tell myself tat i'll be able to accept his departure. But somewhere along the line, i've start to care for him dearly, falling in love without knowing why... i'm losing control... i'll be very sad when he leaves. everyone like to have their loved ones close to them, and i'm no exception. I'm selfish, i hope tat he'll not go afterall. But it's a selfish thot, i'll still have to let go... Afterall, it's his life, not mine. And when the time comes, i'll have to cope...

Am i ready to see him go? I'll know when the time comes... if i'm not ready, i'll just have to cope...

Exam blues

I HATE EXAMS! it never fails to make me feel like a major failure coz i can never have the motivation to pick up my books like my frens! I feel terrible thinking about wat a irresponsible procrastinator I AM! FUCK!

Next friday is my first paper, i cannot believe tat i haven't pick up my books YET~ damn! damn! damn! Anyway, today is my Investment revision class... I hope it's useful and can help me kick off~

Wish me luck!

Miss DBL0 - Sharolyn!

i'm feeling terrible now... been down with a really bad sore throat since Monday. Then caught a cold on Tues (coz of the fucking rain) and was burning with fever for a while, plus the alcohol on wed nite... and i started coughing yesterday! Damn! it's a lousy week...

I hope i'll get well soon, i've been feeling really tired becoz i'm sick. Motivation to study = ZERO!!! I've tried drinking lots of water, herbal tea, cough syrup, panadol, and i try to get as much rest as possible... But nothing seems to help. =' ' '(

i really HATE being sick, but i get sick so often~ why!? why!? why?!?!

I missed Jeffy's phonecall from Shanghai last nite. I was working and din hear my phone~ damn! He left a voicemail though... Miss him~ esp. now tat i'm sick and wished for some TLC~ haha~

Anyway, enuff of whining... Went to Dbl0 on wed nite coz Angela and Huimin asked me along to support a fren for the Miss Dbl0 contest - a sweetie pie called Sharolyn... I got to know Angela from the Singapore Face audition, while Angela got to know Huimin and Sharolyn when they enter the Top 30. Coincidently, Sharolyn is Jeffy's partner for the Singapore Face calendar... And so, i decided to go and join in the fun... Ya right, as if! (-_-") actually i go with a hidden agenda to get to know Sharolyn, coz she's Jeffy's partner and naturally i'm curious about her... haha~ plus i wanna see how pretty the finalists are in person~

The contest is for all the Singapore Face female finalists. And I would say everyone will think tat May Ong will win, coz she's like the hottest gal on stage... BUT the contest goes by a voting system and Sharolyn has a bunch of loyal supporters - made up of Angela, Humin, Benson and me! And we definitely did our part by writing a lot of voting slips, voting for Sharolyn! Being equally HOT (plus sweet), Sharolyn was crowned MISS DBL0 2004~

And then Angela, Huimin and me, all got a "prize" from the lucky draw for voting the right winner. haha~ i think everyone there thinks it's kelong tat all 3 of us, sitting at the same table go up and claim our prize... LoLz~

Had loads of fun tat nite... Angela is a good drinker, she keeps downing glasses of vodka cranberry. And me, i prefer the shooter - Lust... god knows how many shots i had tat nite~ =P Funz, know wat, the drinks at Dbl0 are so much better than CBlack

I made a few new friends tat nite - Sharolyn n Benson, Wei Chong n Weng Kin, Eileen n Wendy.

Benson is Sharolyn's bf. He's a really nice guy, but photography skills, ermz~... haha~ okiez, maybe it's not him, maybe it's us... coz all the photos he took dun capture our charm? j/k! They make a handsome couple... Sharolyn is sweet, but a little blur sometimes? remind me of my fren, Weiling... A kind of innocence surrounding her...

I first met Eileen and Wendy when we attended an interview session for promoting Guiness Stout 2 years or so back. It was at Penny Black (Boat Quay). After tat, i see them in clubs but din go over and talk, coz i was afraid tat they might not remember me. Then recently, thru friendster, i got to know tat Jeffy used to date Eileen for a while before he went to the states to study. Small world? ya, i think so too~ On wed nite, i saw them standing at the tall table without a seat, so i decided to invite them over to join us at our table. Afterall, we have more than enuff space, and i wanna see whether they still remember me~ Surprisingly, they do... I still have both of their numbers in my hp and Eileen told me, she still have my number as well. =D I find both of them really HOT~!

Wendy have a blogsite, http://xiaxue.blogspot.com, voted the Best Singapore Weblog by Hong Kong site www.flyingchair.net last year... Read it, it's hilarious... One of the few blogs tat i've always been following.

Wei Chong is one of the male finalists of Singapore Face, and Weng Kin is his fren. Interesting fellows~ Wei Chong was telling us over coffee after the club session tat he din know Samson Toh, the photographer for the Singapore Face photo shoot session at Sentosa was a gay. After donning a Speedo, Samson was adjusting Wei Chong's Speedo for him for the photo shoot... And he din think much of it until someone mention to him tat Samson seems a little on the softer side~ We all had a good laugh~! Weng Kin is on the quieter side... he seems to be thinking abt a lot of things~ broody? maybe he's tired tat nite~

Shared a cab back with the gals and realised me and Huimin lived only a few blocks away~ next time can jio her out for supper... More of this kind of gals outing pls! I dun have enuff female company~

coughing real bad... gtg prepare for work now~

I need a break~!

been a long time since i last blog.. been VERY busy with A LOT of stuff.. mostly WORK! Been resting at home for the past few days. was supposed to start on my exams prep, but i'm juz so restless. Exams juz round the corner, i hope i'll feel the pressure and have motivation to start studying soon... sigh~! =(

Anyway, been reading a book by Daisy Waugh, titled "The New You Survival Kit". There's one paragraph inside which made me especially emotional after reading.

"Neither got around to mentioning what they'd been up to the previous night. And suddenly, quite explicably, she felt she was going to cry. She needed Ed. She needed him to love her. Or someone to say something tender now and then. She blinked away the sting of tears and simultaneously pick up her phone. ... ... They pecked each other on the cheek and Jo left on her own, feeling unusually fragile, let down and lonely."

Just thought of sharing it.. heez..

Anyway, my colleague told me about a crazy gal's blog, her name's Jamie. Exhibitionist. LOLz~! but i think her entries are all bluff, bunch of bullshit. But nonetheless, read to de-stress... Guys might like it more than gals i guessed. hahahaha...

Miss my guy, he's at Shanghai/Huangshan now, having a holiday. Good life! I wanna go and relax too! Anyway, show you some pics of us taken during the CSS 40th Anniversary Dinner.

Ladies, pls organise a weekend getaway after my exams k! Go anywhere also can! hahaa =D

Professional X-Square Cashier

Had a long day today. Woke up at 10am and went to Tampines Mall's NTUC to do surveys for King's Ice-cream. It's for my DPP project. Reached there ard 12pm. It's freaking far! While travelling, i seriously wonder how Roland managed to send me home almost everyday and then travel home to Simei back then. Thinking back, he really did put in a lot of effort.

Stayed at Tampines Mall until 3pm, then met up with Jason for apple strudel... haha~ i feel so FAT after all the sinful food. Miss the puppy tat Jason has, name's Maximus. A HUGE golden retriever! He's a charming, charismatic and handsome-looking dog (if it can be described this way)... Simply Magnificent! Glad to see both of them (Jason and his pup) today. Max's still as playful as ever... He seems to be the ONLY dog tat dun bark at me! tat's why i like him so much... LoLz~!

After hanging out, Jason sent me to work... I'm currently working part-time at X-Square @ Dhoby Ghaut. Exact location is at Orchard@Atrium, the Dhoby Ghaut NEL Mrt station building... It's a nice place to be working. Not too much stress, easy-going colleagues and loads of fun stuff to learn...

Worked from 6pm to 12 midnight. it's only my 2nd day at work... so pple, gimme some support and go there to play XBOX games ya! haha... I'll be working again on Sunday. ;)

Have something on my mind but dun feel like relating it now. will definitely do so when i'm feeling better. afterall, i'm determined to make this blog a place where i can and will relate my innermost feelings. If I know you, and i write abt you, be sure tat it's really how i feel...

CULT Energy Drink - Nice!!

had supper with Anthony last nite. I was the 2nd person he rides ard on his new bike. tat's wat buddies are! LOLz! But his 1st passenger is his gf - Sharon la... then came home and sleep ard 130am...

And then, tat's today... nothing much... woke up and did laundry! i realised i like to do household chores actually. kinda like therapy, makes me happier. But nobody muz be ard when i do chores, coz i like to do it my way! tmr i shall clean up my room!

Went to work in the late afternn~ promoter for CULT Energy Drink! was stationed @ Lakeside Cheers... very near to my place. Then 2nd stop is at CCK Cheers. Sales at CCK is much better. It's a nice drink~ i tried it today, coz it's free sampling... so i drink some after work as well... heez =P

someone mentioned tat there's a lot of characters in my blog, until he dunno who's who... hahaha... i guessed i've a lot of frens ba~ but at least he can make out who's the more important pple in my life~

i'm tired now... gng to sleep~ nitez! =D

Weekend Marathons

Water is the most neglected nutrient
in your diet but one of the most vital.

I feel so dehydrated all the time these days... damn! muz be the alcohol!

I had a long long weekend, lack of sleep becoz of project, photo shoot session and parties!

OSD Marathon
Woke up @ 7am on Thursday, coz i thot we're supposed to meet 11am, at Tiong Bahru MRT to go over to Melanie's house to finish my report. BUT I've not finished my part, so i woke up early to do it... In the end, they postponed the time to "whenever you're ready to come over" (-_-")

And so i sat in front of my comp and tried doing my part, but realised tat i really dunno how to do! sighz~ In the end, i gave up and took a cab to Mel's house @ 6pm... A little late, but then not all of them are over at her place yet~ Stayed over there for the nite, juz so we can finished the damn OSD report and hand it in on Friday~ *think i'm too old to stay up to do reports* Coz i feel so freaking tired the whole nite! When i have nothing to do (coz there's only 1 computer), i read novels.

Read 2 novels in one night! i recommend this trilogy consisting of the titles: [1] A Child Called 'IT' [2] The Lost Boy [3] A Man Named Dave... It's regarding the life story of a man, who's abused by his mum when he was a little boy (4-12 yrs old). The story juz make me so touch tat i was tearing away when i was reading it... awwwww~

On Friday morning, we finished our report and was so proud of our accomplishment! To celebrate, we played Mahjong for a while before gng off to rest~ LoLz! I missed playing mahjong! Left Mel's place @ 1.45pm and made my way home....

Chinablack Marathon
Was supposed to meet Mexz to get Amy's present at 5pm, but i told him tat i'll meet him at 730pm instead, coz i seriously need to get some rest... In the end, i sat in front of the computer, chat chat chat, then time's up to meet Mexz. goshz~! there goes my resting time. =(

Met Mexz at 8pm coz i was late~ he's such a gentleman. I was late for half an hour and he din even get angry. i felt so so bad! I got a pair of black wedged-heels from VNC for Amy. Benson came to join us later part of the nite and we went to ChinaBlack!

Was talking to them abt life, relationships and growing up... Benson mentioned tat he's in a denial stage of growing up. I think i am too... Juz hate to grow up. At this age of early twenties, i'm about to leave the comfort of schooling life, and start to worry abt working life. it's the turning point of my life. I guessed i'm juz LAZY. Dun feel like working full-time, want to bum around and not take responsibility YET.

Was telling Mexz tat i miss Jeffy and tat i think i'm like superglue these days. Clingy. Used to dislike clingy pple, but i realised i'm becoming like tat... yucks! Anyway, he told me to ask Jeffy to join us if i miss him and SO I DID. heez!

I was happily dancing away on the platform when I see HIM! Was surprised to see Jeffy coz he told me he's not gonna join us! baobei, muackz! it meant a lot to me, seeing him come when i asked him to...

We partied till 430am tat nite... Initially i intended to have an early nite coz i have a photo shoot session @ 9am the next day~ but in the end, i stayed on, coz i'm so so HAPPY... muz be the adrenaline of happiness at works... LOLz~

Photo Shoot Marathon
Reached home ard 6am. *yawnz* Dun dare to sleep coz i'm afraid tat i'll be late for the photo shoot. In the end, i still dozed off ard 8am and woke up when they called me on my cellphone @ 9am. Damn, i feel so bad! got up immediately and left home for Aljunied... Freaking far!

The shoot was fun... the people there are all young people ard my age. They did some interesting makeup for me. it's kinda artistic, not the normal kinda makeup tat other makeup artists put on for me. Something new which ive never experienced. The hairdo is cool too~ LoLz! will upload the pics when i get it from Lawrence (the photographer).

Amy's Birthday Party Marathon
Left at 5pm. Another long day, but not the end YET. Have to make my way down to Amy's place for her birthday party... *yawns* With less than 3hrs of rest in between, i feel so crappy. But i still pushed myself and went for her party, coz she's my BEST FRIEND IN SIM! As usual, she's gorgegous when i see her. Had a great dinner coz i'm so freaking hungry, gng without food the whole day (coz i'm afraid my tummy will show in the photos). The food is good *yum yum*... Went on to party @ Mdm Wong with her. But i'm so not up to it, coz i keep yawning already. I danced for a short while, and dozed off now and then juz sitting there at the couch~ =( In the end, Kevin cut short his nite and sent me home. thks bro, i owe you one!

Reaching home, washed up and fell asleep the moment my head hit the pillow. Exhausted. I slept from 245am to 7pm today~ tat's a total of 16 hours! LoLz! baobei, i'll never complain you're a pig again And i have nothing much to do, coz i'm done with my school stuff... SO I BLOG MY MUNDANE LIFE AGAIN! (^(oO)^)

Playful or Flirt?

I represent PLAYFULNESS!

You represent... playfulness.

Playfulness can often be mistaken for sluttiness
or flirtiness... Flirting is something you enjoy
doing, but you're mostly just about having fun.
You're into partying, and it's seems that people
enjoy your company as much as you enjoy their's.


What feeling do you represent?
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It's Mid-Autumn!

Today is a rather boring day. i woke up, slack and then start on my report. OSD sucks... after an hour of trying to figure out how to start on my part on technology, i give up and went down for a late lunch @ 4pm, coz i'm so freaking hungry... it's my 1st meal of the day. Sigh~ my meal times are always so irregular. WHY?!?!

Came home and continue to have a headache over my report. Damn! After another hour, i'm still clueless about wat to write~! Nothing comes into my mind, juz BLANK!

Procrastination becomes an art form
if you practice it long enough.

It's already 6pm when i finally gave up trying. Not a word written, starting to panic! Deadline's on Friday, and i'm supposed to send my part to Lita by today~

I msg Weifun over MSN and cancelled our dinner appointment, and said i'll meet them @ Chinese Garden MRT station at 730pm instead. Met my fren, Say Hong to take the Sony Ericsson charger and hang out at the coffeeshop for a while b4 setting off to meet the gals. Say Hong is quite a gentleman, he sent me to the station even though it's kinda outta way for him. Thanks dude! And the charger is very cheap coz he got LOBANG! LoLz~ shhhhhhhh! dun let others know~ =P

Life's a little inconvenient without a hp charger. I mean, everytime the phone goes flat, i gotta go over to Jeffy's place to charge the phone, or asked Amy to lend me hers to charge in campus. SUPER INCONVENIENT! But, he needs my phone, so i dun mind~ heez... =D

I know tat i won't get to see him for some time, so i better get a charger since i won't be gng to sch. Lectures all ended! hahaha~ this semester is so so short~ Coolz! First paper's on 29th October... Another month to go. Wonder why they gave us so much time to prepare for exams. Most prob i'll get a job and work instead.

I hope i can get a part-time job! coz job = $$$$$...

met the gals to see lanterns @ Chinese Garden today. yesterday was mid-autumn but then i was working, so decided to go today instead. Had fun there, then went to Jurong East to eat. They like to push money ard~ why ar?? If one person pay 1st, the others wanna return, then take the money lor! Why dun take? If dun take, then allow us to pay for ur meal lor! sigh~ can never understand their logic! haha~

Anyway, i haven't finish my part on technology yet and it's almost 2am.
Sorry gals, will be done b4 i meet you tmr for project meeting~ =X

Unicorn: The Innocent

Which Mythological Form Are You?"

You are Form 3 --> Unicorn: The Innocent

"And The Unicorn knew she wasn't meant to go into
the Dark Wood. Disregarding the advice given to
her by the spirits, Unicorn went inside and bled
silver blood. For her misdeed, the world knew evil."

Some examples of the Unicorn Form are Eve (Christian)
and Pandora (Greek). The Unicorn is associated with
the concept of innocence, the number 3, and the
element of water. Her sign is the twilight sun.

As a member of Form 3, you are a curious individual.
You are drawn to new things and become fascinated
with ideas you've never come in contact with before.
Some people may say you are too nosey, but it's only
because you like getting to the bottom of things and
solving them. Unicorns are the best friends to have
because they are inquisitive.


Which Mythological Form Are You?
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My Weekend~

let's talk abt MY WEeKeND...

FRIDAY
Friday started out not so fine... was not happy over my investment project coz it's due on Sat and i feel tat when we meet up for project meetings, it's a waste of time! I mean, all of us did our own part already, yet we have to meet up like 9am in school "to do the project together" on Thursday. The agenda is not draw out, stay the whole day in school together, but i'm not doing anything, coz my part is already done. And so, i decided to turn up late on Friday (ard 12.45pm then reached), and i can sense their unhappiness. Turn out, I still have nothing to do until 4pm.

Then Nicholas have to call me last min @ 3.50pm to tell me tat i have an interview with Magnum Spirits and Wine for the CULT Energy Drink promotion, 5pm @ Upper Paya Lebar. (-_-") So i decided to rush to the interview right after i finished my part, took a STUPID CAB and it costed me $14~!! Was late for the interview coz seriously, it's not possible to finished my part before 4.30pm plus traffic is HEAVY~! But i'm glad tat i made it for the interview coz although pay's not tat fantastic, it still gimme some income...

Was supposed to meet Jeffy, but he wants to play soccer instead. Initially was quite unhappy but after thinking abt it, i know he's juz someone who love soccer/sports so much, and suddenly i'm juz fine with it, so I made other plans. Met up with Weifun and Tianjie for dinner in Orchard. Haven't seen Tianjie for about a year now. He din change much... Rosslyn and Dawei joined us in the later part of the nite. AND THEY ALL CAME OVER TO MY HOUSE TO DRINK~!!!

Played some silly games and drink ourselves silly as well. Nobody was really drunk, but we were feeling just nice to let loose all our feelings. Talked alot tat nite, shared a lot of stuff. IT'S REALLY LOTSA FUN! I fell asleep ard the 5.45am point, then Rosslyn and Dawei went off at daybreak... Weifun fell asleep with me and Weiling crept home while we were sleeping...


SATURDAY
Woke up at 1030am and can't sleep anymore~ *yawnz* was so tired then... And I went to work on Sat evening @ Woodlands North Plaza. worked as a mascot - Chang Er ~ The fairy who lives on the moon! hahaha~ so LAME~ but did make a lot of kids very happy, and for tat i'm glad...

Then went to meet Jeffy for a midnight movie. We watched White Chicks, funny show~! Talked about a lot of stuff tat nite. He seldom talk so much. And it's through communication tat you'll understand someone better, so... I juz like talking to him. He promised to go Sentosa with me and my frens on Sunday, but in the end, he din go, using LAZiNESS as an excuse. So typical of him! Hmpfff! =(


SUNDAY
Anyway, Sunday 11am! Went to Sentosa with Weifun, Rosslyn and Dawei. Weifun is so steady, she went to Sentosa on Sat, then Sunday accompany us again! Played frisbee... realised none of us have any talent with the disk-like piece of trash AT ALL! Turned to volley then realised tat the ball dun have enough air... In the end, through pure chance, we managed to borrow a pump from some chaps on the beach. Story goes, they're playing soccer and the ball hit me on my ankle, they came over to check whether i'm fine, and i say "I'll be fine if you have a pump to spare me for a short while. (plus a huge wide grin)" and TA DAA! We got a pump! So lucky right!!!! =D

played till 330pm then i got to shower and get ready to work as Chang Er again! this time at Woodlands Mart. rushed all the way there then realised tat it's raining anyway, so can't start working... have to wait till rain stops coz is an outdoor event. After work, took a bus home together with Howie, the rabbit mascot, coz he also lives in the Jurong West area. He's in Ngee Ann Poly, 3rd yr, Mass Communications... but i never ask him his age. He look so blur.

Reached home and went online, then at 1+++am, Xavier came online and jio me go Holland Crystal Jade for supper! steady ar~ i was so hungry then! Was deciding to take a cab down, when i asked my dad whether can take the car (was juz trying my luck)... and ta daa~ he agree! And so, i drove like a tortoise and met Xavier for supper.

Came home after supper and can't sleep until NOW~ which is why i'm still blogging such a LONG PIECE OF MUNDANE ACTIVITIES I DID OVER THE WEEKEND @ 4AM~ aarrggghhh~~~~~!!!!!!

Paranoid.

I realised i'm more active at nite. not a day-person i guessed.

Today, i went to KBOX with Angela, Huimin and Weifun. Had a great time... Angela and Huimin is really nice to talk to. Even though this is the first time i hang out with them, we made fast friends, coz all of us are so talkative! yak yak yak all the time...

I hate it when friends dun call back when i call them and they dun pick up. I usually will text them if they dun pick up and i expect a reply, coz i'm worried tat some accident might have happened.

Was super worried abt Jeffy the whole day, coz he din reply to my msgs and din pick up my calls the whole day. I thot he met with an accident or something. Was a little paranoid, coz last nite i saw someone being carried into an ambulance near my area...

it reminded me of a traffic accident tat i witnessed some time back... it was gruesome, the motorcyclist was squashed under a trailer. I still remember the sight after so long, it affected me a lot at tat time. The sight of the guy lying lifeless under the trailer, blood everywhere, his family crying so badly when they reached the site... it's so SAD and SCARY. I was so scare tat i called up my family members one by one to make sure they're alright. My emotions were affected badly... i will start crying for no reason, coz the sight juz comes into my mind ever so often when it juz happened. It took me quite some time to come out of depression then... Everytime i see an ambulance on the street these days, i think of tat accident. sigh~ life's so short, you'll never know wat will happen next...

i guessed tat's why i was so worried when he din call me back the whole day. i seriously thought something might have happen to him. Turn out to be, he forgot to bring his cellphone... (-_-") But I'm glad he called me back at nite when he reached home, else i would have gone to bed thinking of all the worst situations ever...

So my dear friends, next time, pls pls pls call me back if you missed my call, at least text me so tat i know you're alright...

Spoilt Starlett

i like the way he talked to me, explaining everything patiently, even though i'm complaining so much. wat he said actually make more sense when he talk nicely to me. i know from the bottom of my heart tat i'm unhappy not becoz he's not good to me, but he's not treating me the way i want him to... i mean he dotes on me, i can sense tat, but juz not the way i need it... sigh~

is it wrong to feel unhappy abt it then? I seriously do not know... MAYBE i'm juz not used to the way things are. Some pple say i'm spoilt. Maybe. Or maybe i'm just born like that.

Time will tell...

everything was fine today, esp. after our talk... until someone talks to me and set me thinking abt stuff again... sigh~ juz let things be for now, not in the mood to think abt it anymore.

I mean, if he's serious, i'll be able to tell in time. If he's not serious, i'll also be able to tell in time... TIME WILL TELL EVERYTHING... and if i get hurt in the process, TIME WILL HEAL ALL WOUNDS anyway... get it?


Let us have a care not to disclose our hearts to those who shut up theirs against us.      -- Francis Beaumont

Never pretend to a love which you do not actually feel, for love is not ours to command.      -- Alan Watts

Take hold lightly; let go lightly. This is one of the great secrets of felicity in love.      -- Spanish Proverb

good nitez everyone!