oday I feel exceptionally moody. sigh! I barely finished my journals on time coz I was procrastinating as usual. As always, I'm the "group leader" for my project, therefore placed in charge of the final compilation and checking of the final product. The project due today is the BGGC Memo and Interim Journals. I compiled everything, checked through thoroughly, make all necessary changes, print it out, settle all the administrative stuff such as cover page, assignment declaration form and have to travel to school to hand it in. It's not difficult, juz very tedious. Was freaking afraid that I'll be late! was abt to force my bro, Alan to send me to school when EL called and "saved" my day by offering to send me instead. Meeting up with him always make me smile...
After sending me to school to drop my assignment , we went to his place for dinner. Chilled over at his place after dinner... was having a conversation with his mum when she tell me the "Hokkien" name of their dog - J.J - it means sit sit... Mispronouncing J.J in Hokkien is "sit sit" I dunno why, but I had a gd laugh coz I find it really amusing...
When i was at his place, I did a sneaky thing and looked through the photos in his computer without him knowing, only to make myself feel weird and uncomfortable after seeing pics of him with his ex-gf... Sigh! Jealousy... Silly things we humans do sometimes... But it's my own fault to even peep, so I can't possibly be upset abt it I guess. Brushing the unhappy feeling aside, I juz burrow into his arms and buried myself in his snug hug to seek that comfort that I needed so much to make myself feel better... Already in a moody state, only to make myself feel worse by doing stupid things... Downright dumb!
EL accompanied me to meet Celia for supper or rather, juz a catching up session actually... Listening to her talk abt her relationship suddenly makes me scare and a sudden lack of confidence in my own relationship... Sigh! I suddenly feel that i'm caring too much, too fast, and it scaring me.
I always feel that if I care a lot for someone, he/she have the ability to hurt me more. I'm really quite scare of getting hurt again. I'm also afraid that i'll choose to 'escape and run away' again when I feel the pressure or when we face a problem. I'm guilty of doing that, that's why all my relationships didn't last long after YM... EL is too good to me, making me worried that I might not be able to measure up. Sigh... Mood swing... Lotsa weird thoughts crowding up my mind tonite.
Gonna sleep now... Long day tmr! sianzzz... I got NO mood to do anything constructive recently...
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
Fashion Profile for Pisces
Got this interesting piece about sun sign's fashion profile on iVillage
Pisces Fashion Profile
The Fish likes to be able to flow in and out of clothing with ease. Most at home barefoot, in long, flowing skirts, you are most in tune with the world around you when your clothing is comfortable to the point of nonexistence. Clothes are, in fact, a social construct. You know you can't wander about naked, though, so you go to bargain stores and thrift shops to get yours. If you had it your way, you would probably go about in a bathing suit all day, throwing on a plastic bag or two when it got cold. You're flexible, though. If you buy a power suit and wear it like you mean it, you will eventually grow into it. Once you get past the hang-up of having something on your feet, you're prone to buying tons of shoes, so at least your toes can have some variety in their prison.
Moonstones are a good bet to adorn your body in strange places. Belly chains, anklets and, especially, toe rings cast a fantastical glimmer over whatever it is you're wearing. Hair that is long and tangled quickly becomes hair that is long and braided when the Fish needs a quick fix. When left in your natural state, you don't give a lot of thought to clothing. Pisces is a chameleon, however, so wherever you go and whatever you do, you never need to worry about fitting in.
Now i know why i love to go au natural? i dun mind juz bikinis too~ hahahaha... j/k!
For other signs have to click on the link above and read on your own! *griNz*
Pisces Fashion Profile
The Fish likes to be able to flow in and out of clothing with ease. Most at home barefoot, in long, flowing skirts, you are most in tune with the world around you when your clothing is comfortable to the point of nonexistence. Clothes are, in fact, a social construct. You know you can't wander about naked, though, so you go to bargain stores and thrift shops to get yours. If you had it your way, you would probably go about in a bathing suit all day, throwing on a plastic bag or two when it got cold. You're flexible, though. If you buy a power suit and wear it like you mean it, you will eventually grow into it. Once you get past the hang-up of having something on your feet, you're prone to buying tons of shoes, so at least your toes can have some variety in their prison.
Moonstones are a good bet to adorn your body in strange places. Belly chains, anklets and, especially, toe rings cast a fantastical glimmer over whatever it is you're wearing. Hair that is long and tangled quickly becomes hair that is long and braided when the Fish needs a quick fix. When left in your natural state, you don't give a lot of thought to clothing. Pisces is a chameleon, however, so wherever you go and whatever you do, you never need to worry about fitting in.
Now i know why i love to go au natural? i dun mind juz bikinis too~ hahahaha... j/k!
For other signs have to click on the link above and read on your own! *griNz*
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
Eddie Lim - My Baby
juz in the mood to write about us~
He made me feel loved... really loved and doted on~ a feeling tat i haven't felt for some time...
We started off with being friends. the way we know each other is quite crap actually... online net frens! ha~ met him the day after i got discharged from hospital. it was a very very rough period for me. I was kinda lost... And he gave me the support and attention i needed at tat time, helping me along in finding my path~ I appreciate tat in the friendship he gave me.
After some time, I start to find comfort in juz contacting him... a simple msg, a phone call, msn chats... Then our friendship went thru a rough patch, the dilemmas we both felt strongly. Whether is it right? or wrong? I dare say we went through some, if not a lot, together~ friendship turned into a relationship... a very special bond we feel for each other.
However wrong the situation seems in the beginning, i can't bear to see him go even though i keep telling him to go away... I believe he felt the same at that time. We gave each other the time and space we both needed~ And in his own way, though not always verbally, he gave me the reassurance tat everything will turn out fine eventually... even though i felt very sad, i trusted him, and i waited for him... We finally officially got together on 9th August. *smiLez* good eh! every year anniversary, he'll confirm have time for me, coz it's public holiday! LoL!
He did a lot of sweet stuff for me... something i really appreciate and wanna say a big THANK YOU DEAR!
when i'm down, he'll meet up with me in the afternn juz to have lunch together with me. After lunch, he stayed a while longer juz to talk to me. (I always felt bad for keeping him from his work)
when i needed help for my project, he helped me by sacrificing his sleep, painstakingly churn out the information i needed juz so that i dun have to do it coz i dun have enuff time alr. (i'm not proud of tat fact tat i din do my own work... but i really think it's sweet of him to even think of helping me this way) He motivated me nicely even though i ought to be juz scolded for being so plain lazy. I still remember he brought me chips and ice-cream in the middle of the nite so that i can have something to munch on if i'm hungry or tired.
He'll send me to sch/work or come and fetch me from sch/work coz he dun want me to be too tired. (even though sometimes it's really out of the way!) Once, he was already sleeping, and he woke up juz to come Suntec and fetch me home after work @ 1am!
He'll accompany me and wait for me to dye my hair, even though he's quite bored really. (I think not many guys with have this kinda patience)
He'll listen to me yak about my day and he'll share with me about his day. this is really impt to me~ coz it juz feels good tat we're sharing our lives.
He tries his best to accompany me whenever he's free. Everyday, after his work, after his dinner at home, he'll come over and juz spend time together at my place... he dun make me feel cramped coz he'll let me juz do my own stuff if there's any, and not disturb me at all, giving me my personal space and juz quietly watch TV or talk to my youngest bro~ i juz love his presence...
When i feel like going outta the house, he'll bring me out for a cruise. even though with no aim in mind, he'll juz bring me, coz i wanna get out... juz to make me feel happier, no questions asked~
He really makes me feel good by juz putting our pics on his Friendster and MSN. LoL! It's like announcing to everyone tat we're together~ i find this really sweet, coz seriously, not many guys in my life did this. He developed our pic, laminated it and placed it in his wallet. (i know this sounds lame, but i really love tat... heez)
He's respectful to my parents and in his cute way, tried to get along with my 3 brothers... my elder bro is fierce, younger bro is crappy and youngest bro a pest~ but he juz managed to get along with all 3 of them... It's really nice to see tat. He called my youngest bro juz tonite to asked whether he had dinner and whether he need us to buy dinner back for him! And i didn't even know who he's calling until he put down the phone~ even though i teased him abt it and said it's his strategy to get into my bro's good books and get my info from him, i really appreciate it!
He'll hang out with my frens together with me~ tolerate their questions about him and smile through the whole ordeal~ haahaa! He can sit through my gal-frens yakking session and also go drinking session with my guy-frens... versatile for my sake~
He'll stay up late, give up his sleeping time and accompany me online juz becoz i'm not sleeping~ And he dun usually stay up late. And he can't sleep in late like me coz he gotta work~
Today, he's sick, but still he came to accompany me~ To kill time, we went to Bukit Timah to play pool together with my buddy Anthony. I din know how to take care of him though. Other than nagging at him to take his medicine, drink more water and smoke less, i seriously dunno what else to do~ sigh...
He'll gives me the reassurance tat i need~ Even though he dun say them directly, I know tat he cares for me, thru the things he do, the things he said... even though i always say i'm a strong gal, value my freedom, independent blah blah blah~ i really feel much much better with these reassurance... tonite, i was actually feeling rather annoyed after seeing some pics, but somehow, though his speech and his sincere words, i know i shldn't worry or even think abt it.
He'll protect me in his own way and try his best not to let me get hurt.
And of coz, there's alot alot more stuff....
Sweetest thing, he tells me he loves me...
i wanna let him know i noticed all these things he did for me and i really really appreciate it~ I always feel tat i'm lucky to have him as my bf. Sometimes, i feel tat i'm not good enough for him... But i guessed i will juz try my very best...
I LOVE YOU TOO!! *huGz*
BABY, I will try my best to be a good girlfriend...
More of our pictures!! muahahaha~ *griNz*
this is me and my baby - Eddie Lim
He made me feel loved... really loved and doted on~ a feeling tat i haven't felt for some time...
We started off with being friends. the way we know each other is quite crap actually... online net frens! ha~ met him the day after i got discharged from hospital. it was a very very rough period for me. I was kinda lost... And he gave me the support and attention i needed at tat time, helping me along in finding my path~ I appreciate tat in the friendship he gave me.
After some time, I start to find comfort in juz contacting him... a simple msg, a phone call, msn chats... Then our friendship went thru a rough patch, the dilemmas we both felt strongly. Whether is it right? or wrong? I dare say we went through some, if not a lot, together~ friendship turned into a relationship... a very special bond we feel for each other.
However wrong the situation seems in the beginning, i can't bear to see him go even though i keep telling him to go away... I believe he felt the same at that time. We gave each other the time and space we both needed~ And in his own way, though not always verbally, he gave me the reassurance tat everything will turn out fine eventually... even though i felt very sad, i trusted him, and i waited for him... We finally officially got together on 9th August. *smiLez* good eh! every year anniversary, he'll confirm have time for me, coz it's public holiday! LoL!
He did a lot of sweet stuff for me... something i really appreciate and wanna say a big THANK YOU DEAR!
when i'm down, he'll meet up with me in the afternn juz to have lunch together with me. After lunch, he stayed a while longer juz to talk to me. (I always felt bad for keeping him from his work)
when i needed help for my project, he helped me by sacrificing his sleep, painstakingly churn out the information i needed juz so that i dun have to do it coz i dun have enuff time alr. (i'm not proud of tat fact tat i din do my own work... but i really think it's sweet of him to even think of helping me this way) He motivated me nicely even though i ought to be juz scolded for being so plain lazy. I still remember he brought me chips and ice-cream in the middle of the nite so that i can have something to munch on if i'm hungry or tired.
He'll send me to sch/work or come and fetch me from sch/work coz he dun want me to be too tired. (even though sometimes it's really out of the way!) Once, he was already sleeping, and he woke up juz to come Suntec and fetch me home after work @ 1am!
He'll accompany me and wait for me to dye my hair, even though he's quite bored really. (I think not many guys with have this kinda patience)
He'll listen to me yak about my day and he'll share with me about his day. this is really impt to me~ coz it juz feels good tat we're sharing our lives.
He tries his best to accompany me whenever he's free. Everyday, after his work, after his dinner at home, he'll come over and juz spend time together at my place... he dun make me feel cramped coz he'll let me juz do my own stuff if there's any, and not disturb me at all, giving me my personal space and juz quietly watch TV or talk to my youngest bro~ i juz love his presence...
When i feel like going outta the house, he'll bring me out for a cruise. even though with no aim in mind, he'll juz bring me, coz i wanna get out... juz to make me feel happier, no questions asked~
He really makes me feel good by juz putting our pics on his Friendster and MSN. LoL! It's like announcing to everyone tat we're together~ i find this really sweet, coz seriously, not many guys in my life did this. He developed our pic, laminated it and placed it in his wallet. (i know this sounds lame, but i really love tat... heez)
He's respectful to my parents and in his cute way, tried to get along with my 3 brothers... my elder bro is fierce, younger bro is crappy and youngest bro a pest~ but he juz managed to get along with all 3 of them... It's really nice to see tat. He called my youngest bro juz tonite to asked whether he had dinner and whether he need us to buy dinner back for him! And i didn't even know who he's calling until he put down the phone~ even though i teased him abt it and said it's his strategy to get into my bro's good books and get my info from him, i really appreciate it!
He'll hang out with my frens together with me~ tolerate their questions about him and smile through the whole ordeal~ haahaa! He can sit through my gal-frens yakking session and also go drinking session with my guy-frens... versatile for my sake~
He'll stay up late, give up his sleeping time and accompany me online juz becoz i'm not sleeping~ And he dun usually stay up late. And he can't sleep in late like me coz he gotta work~
Today, he's sick, but still he came to accompany me~ To kill time, we went to Bukit Timah to play pool together with my buddy Anthony. I din know how to take care of him though. Other than nagging at him to take his medicine, drink more water and smoke less, i seriously dunno what else to do~ sigh...
He'll gives me the reassurance tat i need~ Even though he dun say them directly, I know tat he cares for me, thru the things he do, the things he said... even though i always say i'm a strong gal, value my freedom, independent blah blah blah~ i really feel much much better with these reassurance... tonite, i was actually feeling rather annoyed after seeing some pics, but somehow, though his speech and his sincere words, i know i shldn't worry or even think abt it.
He'll protect me in his own way and try his best not to let me get hurt.
And of coz, there's alot alot more stuff....
Sweetest thing, he tells me he loves me...
i wanna let him know i noticed all these things he did for me and i really really appreciate it~ I always feel tat i'm lucky to have him as my bf. Sometimes, i feel tat i'm not good enough for him... But i guessed i will juz try my very best...
I LOVE YOU TOO!! *huGz*
BABY, I will try my best to be a good girlfriend...
More of our pictures!! muahahaha~ *griNz*
:: Picture of Bliss ::
self-taken in his car actually...
:: My Fav Picture ::
when my hair is still purplish~ 1st time we went KTV together...
He say I managed to "impress" him tat day~
:: In His Latest Levi's Glasses ::
he's a vain lass~ muahahaha...
this is his latest craze. his new Levi's specs~
Friday, August 12, 2005
something sweet...
I've been lazy~ so haven't been updating frequently enuff for my liking... every nite i'm sleeping real late... and then i wake up even later~ kaoz! everyday sleep at 3am++ and then wake up 1pm++! i'm like a zombie! i think i've been bitten by the LAZY bug~ =(
But i wanna record down something... something sweet~ He came and fetch me home after night lecture so that i won't be tired~ And he bought me dinner coz he knew i'm lazy and din have any food before i rush down to school for class~ i appreciate all this sweet gestures tat he did for me... thanks dear!
I hope i won't get too spoilt by him though~ haahaa... *griNz*
But i wanna record down something... something sweet~ He came and fetch me home after night lecture so that i won't be tired~ And he bought me dinner coz he knew i'm lazy and din have any food before i rush down to school for class~ i appreciate all this sweet gestures tat he did for me... thanks dear!
I hope i won't get too spoilt by him though~ haahaa... *griNz*
Thursday, August 11, 2005
True Love will never become Hatred
♥ 真正爱一个人是无法说出原因的，
你只知道无论何时何地、心情好坏，
你都希望这个人陪著你；
真正的感情是两人能在最艰苦中相守，
也就是没有丝毫要求。
毕竟，感情必须付出，而不是只想获得；
分开是一种必然的考验，
如果你们感情不够稳固，只好认输，
真爱是不会变成怨恨的。♥
And how true i think this is...
Super Spoiler!
It's a BAD BAD day... everything started to go wrong since 12mn~ very tempted to write abt everything here, but i shall not coz it'll juz make me more and more angry... I'm glad i went to meet Celia after class for some bitching session to find my balance, else i'll explode and scream at THE SHREWD tat spoilt MY DAY~! i still can't believe she can miss call me so many times!!
Yesterday was supposed to be my happiest day, coz my baby finally gave me an answer to my question... we're finally an item! it really means a lot to me. And so, National Day marks the beginning of forever~ we spent the whole day juz slacking together at my place then went to Bedok for dinner, then slack some more at home... was feeling incredibly happy the whole day, only to get it spoilt to the MAX by her at nite... super spoiler! hmpff!!
but nvm... my mood's getting better alr... though i predict more stuff will happen and we will not have our peace any time soon~ sigh!
Yesterday was supposed to be my happiest day, coz my baby finally gave me an answer to my question... we're finally an item! it really means a lot to me. And so, National Day marks the beginning of forever~ we spent the whole day juz slacking together at my place then went to Bedok for dinner, then slack some more at home... was feeling incredibly happy the whole day, only to get it spoilt to the MAX by her at nite... super spoiler! hmpff!!
but nvm... my mood's getting better alr... though i predict more stuff will happen and we will not have our peace any time soon~ sigh!
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
人不痴狂罔少年
人不痴狂罔少年
this chinese phrase keep appearing in my mind recently... it means something like one's youth is wasted if one did not do any reckless/stupid stuff when they are young? So basically, something like live life to the fullest kinda thing...
i wonder what will be a good english translation for it so that the meaning will not be lost~ haahaa!
Saturday, August 06, 2005
Simple Joys
i haven't been crying for some time. Learning to be strong? Actually I'm juz getting by, picking myself up slowly... All in all, i'm doing fine since the incident almost 2 months back now...
Last nite, tears flow for a fren coz i feel really sad tat he's not happy with his life now. I dunno why but i feel deeply for him for the situation tat he's stuck in. i juz hope he will be happy. I hope all my frens will be happy and healthy! So all my dear frens, learn to smile and appreciate life... =)
Embrace the simple joys of juz opening ur eyes to the beautiful morning and a bright new day~ snuggle in bed for a while and enjoy the warmth of your bed and quilt, or better still, the warmth of ur beloved in your arms... It's your choice to be happy everyday! *smiLez*
Like today~ i indulged in a simple breakfast fare with my mum - coffee, bread and eggs (sunny-side-ups done to perfection by mummy), talking abt what happened to me recently at work, at school and my feelings, sharing my troubles, worries and happy or funny stuff that happened... She talked abt hers as well~ it makes us understand each other on a deeper level. Although it's sad to say tat all this sharing comes only after something happened to me, but i'm glad finally we're starting to talk and share... I'm sorry to make her worried, but part of me is glad tat the incident made us closer and we pay more attention to each other now. juz plain chit chatting with my family brightens my day... in the end, my brothers joined us as well. We talked, joked and ask about each other more~ =)
I spent my day lying in bed with a cup of hot tea by my bedside, reading a romance novel and listening to music while my youngest brother planted himself in front of the computer playing his online game - Maple Story... occassionally, he'll exclaim to me abt the game when he gets some "freebies" (or issit weapons?). Or he's yak abt his frens in school and the stupid things they did. recently he subtly asked me, "why do pple have infatuations?" LoL~ tat's part of him growing up... afterall, he's only 13-yr-old~!
usually the computer is out of access for him when i'm home, but weekends, i try to let him use it for gaming since he's in school on weekdays. And he's sick this weekend, quite poor thing, so i gotta try and make him feel better... A compromise between siblings~ afterall, i still love him dearly even though he's such a pest sometimes!
All these little little things are juz some simple joys... there are lots more that will make me happy as long as I learn to embrace it and be contented~
Learn to take a break from work sometimes as well (this comment is really targeted at one particular gal-fren whom i care for, but dun see enuff of! you know who you are, you workaholic!)
Last nite, tears flow for a fren coz i feel really sad tat he's not happy with his life now. I dunno why but i feel deeply for him for the situation tat he's stuck in. i juz hope he will be happy. I hope all my frens will be happy and healthy! So all my dear frens, learn to smile and appreciate life... =)
Embrace the simple joys of juz opening ur eyes to the beautiful morning and a bright new day~ snuggle in bed for a while and enjoy the warmth of your bed and quilt, or better still, the warmth of ur beloved in your arms... It's your choice to be happy everyday! *smiLez*
Like today~ i indulged in a simple breakfast fare with my mum - coffee, bread and eggs (sunny-side-ups done to perfection by mummy), talking abt what happened to me recently at work, at school and my feelings, sharing my troubles, worries and happy or funny stuff that happened... She talked abt hers as well~ it makes us understand each other on a deeper level. Although it's sad to say tat all this sharing comes only after something happened to me, but i'm glad finally we're starting to talk and share... I'm sorry to make her worried, but part of me is glad tat the incident made us closer and we pay more attention to each other now. juz plain chit chatting with my family brightens my day... in the end, my brothers joined us as well. We talked, joked and ask about each other more~ =)
I spent my day lying in bed with a cup of hot tea by my bedside, reading a romance novel and listening to music while my youngest brother planted himself in front of the computer playing his online game - Maple Story... occassionally, he'll exclaim to me abt the game when he gets some "freebies" (or issit weapons?). Or he's yak abt his frens in school and the stupid things they did. recently he subtly asked me, "why do pple have infatuations?" LoL~ tat's part of him growing up... afterall, he's only 13-yr-old~!
usually the computer is out of access for him when i'm home, but weekends, i try to let him use it for gaming since he's in school on weekdays. And he's sick this weekend, quite poor thing, so i gotta try and make him feel better... A compromise between siblings~ afterall, i still love him dearly even though he's such a pest sometimes!
All these little little things are juz some simple joys... there are lots more that will make me happy as long as I learn to embrace it and be contented~
Learn to take a break from work sometimes as well (this comment is really targeted at one particular gal-fren whom i care for, but dun see enuff of! you know who you are, you workaholic!)
Monday, August 01, 2005
ALL DONE! Hooray~
I've finally finished my report... EL came over to accompany me juz now~ helped me with my resume writing and think of the right words to describe ME! heez... Then i realised this one whole week, i've been meeting him every single day~ 7 days now...
But i'm happy to see him la... Overall, i'm so so happy tat that i've finished my report... tmr i shall go HAND IN MY REPORT! Hooray~~!!
But i'm happy to see him la... Overall, i'm so so happy tat that i've finished my report... tmr i shall go HAND IN MY REPORT! Hooray~~!!
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