and there it goes... i did turn up at Zouk afterall~ was feeling so damn lazy, coz i had to go down myself initially, BUT in the end, i managed to persuade my younger bro, Alan to send me there... Actually, i asked him in front of his gf, and my pretty, sweet "sis-in-law" will insist tat he send me down~ muahaha... i like her alot, coz of her personality really... she's someone who will be a fren worth keeping no matter wat happens...
i'm becoming pretty spoilt coz frens' been giving me rides all around and i became so lazy to take the public transport. And it actually affects my decision on whether to go out. it's like, if no one's fetching me, i juz wanna stay home.. It's a very very bad habit i know and it's WRONG~ so, i better do something abt it...
went to the winebar to have drinks. maybe becoz the mood is not there, and i'm feeling kinda tired so i din really enjoyed myself.. dunno why, but i was hoping to see someone there, but he's not there. not someone impt to me, but juz a link... mayb deep down inside, i juz wanna know how WT's doing now and tis person is a link.. the whole situation sounds wrong even to me... But heck la...
went into Phuture to look for Icedoom coz he's there... met Jeffy on the way in. somehow it feels weird to see him. maybe i'm not used to seeing him on TV and his face splashed over magazines and newspapers... hahaha~
Another fren, Don was sweet as well.. he offered to come send me home if my frens aren't gng to. i appreciate tat really.. thanks! *griNz*
Left Zouk ard 2.30am... so much for an early nite tat i planned for myself~ =X
i'm gng to wash up and SLEEP now... i got an interview with Carlsberg tmr at 11am. Hope i get the promo jobs~ dead broke now...
Thursday, June 30, 2005
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
Final Checkup OVER
went swimming with EL @ Jurong East Swimming Complex this morning~ i'm feeling super tired actually, but i wanna catch the sun for some sunbathing, so i forced myself to wake up and go to the pool... EL obliged and accompanied me. haha~ poor him.. coz he's tired too. we stayed up chatting till almost dawn. we reached the pool @ 11am! tat's pretty early for me. swam like only 4 laps then i'm bored alr. Juz lie there and suntan for like 2 hrs.. saw my sec sch mate, Yiqiang there. wat a coincidence~
i'm pretty tan now! heez... went over to his place to fix his computer for him~ or rather juz install some anti-virus programs for him coz he's quite an IT idiot? LoL~ din managed to help him fixed much, but found out his comp is flooded with spywares and adwares... LIKE MINE NOW! sigh~!
then he sent me to Alexandra Hospital for my follow-up health checkup which is at 330pm. On the way there, i was feeling so so moody. Coz the place brings back BAD memories i guessed. And i'm worried tat they might prick me with needles again... =P
Luckily they didn't.. But i was informed tat i have this thing call "alpha thalassemia trait"
What is alpha thalassemia?
Thalassemia is an inherited disorder that affects the production of normal hemoglobin (a type of protein in red blood cells that carries oxygen to the tissues of the body). Thalassemia includes a number of different forms of anemia. The severity and type of anemia depends upon the number of genes that are affected.
As if i really understand?!?!?! actually, it's juz a form of low blood count tat i inherited... LoL! but one interesting finding - if i married someone with this trait as well, our kids will have 25% of having a serious case of low blood count. So next time, have to ask the guy i'm dating whether he has this trait, if have, then NEXT! j/k...
And then i found out i have 57mg/ml of Paracetamol aka acetaminophen in my blood! it's supposed to be a lot... the doctor told me tat explains the gastric problems i'm having now. coz the body takes time to clear itself of this crap... basically, the gastric pain is killing me slowly everyday, making me lose my usual gigantic appetite, seeping away my energy! hmpfff! :/
So still, no extreme food for me... not too spicy, not too hot, not too cold, not too full, cannot dun eat, blah blah blah~ duhz! stupid "advice"... But i self-declare, no alcohol for me! muahahahaa~ like real eh? my buddy, Icedoom will say this - ya right! when pigs do synchronised swimming, Tricia will quit drinking...
I'm feelin much better now after the checkup and i'm officially discharged... might sound weird, but i guessed, after this final checkup, it's time to close tat chapter of my life and move on. tat's why i felt much better when i walked out of the building. Everyone goes thru bad phrases or have bad experiences at one point in their life. This is it for me... But I strongly believe life will get better for me. *smiLez*
after the checkup, we went for lunch @ Ngee Ann Poly. Down the memory lane for him. tat's where he's studying formerly. passed by my sch - SIM and get reminded tat i have journals due very soon, but yet to be finished and sch is reopening in a week's time... not exactly a nice thought. sigh~
Came home after the checkup and been trying to troubleshoot my computer since... it's infected (YET AGAIN! DAMN!!) with virus again. keeps sending URLs to my MSN contacts and i cannot stop it. my AVG din picked up any threats, but it's still not fixed, coz it still sending pple URLs so i think AVG is inadequate. iaN recommended Norton and send me the link to d/l the trialware. it picked up 34 infected files and 18 at risk files. NOW i know, Norton is still the best... luckily he's gonna pass me his Norton soon.
Icedoom is disappointed coz i promised to go Eski Bar tonite, but in the end, also tua him. Had plans to go to Zouk tonite as well, but till now, i still dun have the mood... so most prob i'll give it a miss ba~ my frens there are gonna be pissed... hahaha! But heck, i can't drink, go there for wat?!?! kill time? but i'm quite sick of Zouk eh... last week i'm also there... see how it goes later ba!
i'm pretty tan now! heez... went over to his place to fix his computer for him~ or rather juz install some anti-virus programs for him coz he's quite an IT idiot? LoL~ din managed to help him fixed much, but found out his comp is flooded with spywares and adwares... LIKE MINE NOW! sigh~!
then he sent me to Alexandra Hospital for my follow-up health checkup which is at 330pm. On the way there, i was feeling so so moody. Coz the place brings back BAD memories i guessed. And i'm worried tat they might prick me with needles again... =P
Luckily they didn't.. But i was informed tat i have this thing call "alpha thalassemia trait"
What is alpha thalassemia?
Thalassemia is an inherited disorder that affects the production of normal hemoglobin (a type of protein in red blood cells that carries oxygen to the tissues of the body). Thalassemia includes a number of different forms of anemia. The severity and type of anemia depends upon the number of genes that are affected.
As if i really understand?!?!?! actually, it's juz a form of low blood count tat i inherited... LoL! but one interesting finding - if i married someone with this trait as well, our kids will have 25% of having a serious case of low blood count. So next time, have to ask the guy i'm dating whether he has this trait, if have, then NEXT! j/k...
And then i found out i have 57mg/ml of Paracetamol aka acetaminophen in my blood! it's supposed to be a lot... the doctor told me tat explains the gastric problems i'm having now. coz the body takes time to clear itself of this crap... basically, the gastric pain is killing me slowly everyday, making me lose my usual gigantic appetite, seeping away my energy! hmpfff! :/
So still, no extreme food for me... not too spicy, not too hot, not too cold, not too full, cannot dun eat, blah blah blah~ duhz! stupid "advice"... But i self-declare, no alcohol for me! muahahahaa~ like real eh? my buddy, Icedoom will say this - ya right! when pigs do synchronised swimming, Tricia will quit drinking...
I'm feelin much better now after the checkup and i'm officially discharged... might sound weird, but i guessed, after this final checkup, it's time to close tat chapter of my life and move on. tat's why i felt much better when i walked out of the building. Everyone goes thru bad phrases or have bad experiences at one point in their life. This is it for me... But I strongly believe life will get better for me. *smiLez*
after the checkup, we went for lunch @ Ngee Ann Poly. Down the memory lane for him. tat's where he's studying formerly. passed by my sch - SIM and get reminded tat i have journals due very soon, but yet to be finished and sch is reopening in a week's time... not exactly a nice thought. sigh~
Came home after the checkup and been trying to troubleshoot my computer since... it's infected (YET AGAIN! DAMN!!) with virus again. keeps sending URLs to my MSN contacts and i cannot stop it. my AVG din picked up any threats, but it's still not fixed, coz it still sending pple URLs so i think AVG is inadequate. iaN recommended Norton and send me the link to d/l the trialware. it picked up 34 infected files and 18 at risk files. NOW i know, Norton is still the best... luckily he's gonna pass me his Norton soon.
Icedoom is disappointed coz i promised to go Eski Bar tonite, but in the end, also tua him. Had plans to go to Zouk tonite as well, but till now, i still dun have the mood... so most prob i'll give it a miss ba~ my frens there are gonna be pissed... hahaha! But heck, i can't drink, go there for wat?!?! kill time? but i'm quite sick of Zouk eh... last week i'm also there... see how it goes later ba!
A Lot Like Love...
woke up early today. Von called me @ 930am to wake me up~ coz we're meeting up at Clementi at 11am... the late one is supposed to treat KBOX. haha! good way to motivate both of us. coz we're both always late? or is it juz me? hhmmm... been abt a month and a half since i last see him. i still remember he treat me to thai food at Golden Mile b4 i left for Australia. all becoz i said i wanna have nice tomyam soup b4 i leave... nice guy wor~ strongly recommended to all the gals out there. *wiNkz*
the morning routine - wake up, wash up and get outta the house is getting shorter each day for me, coz i simply refuse to apply makeup now! heez... a very good way to make myself feel BETTER~ coz i've always feel tat putting on makeup is such a chore. my fren, Amy is always trying to convince me otherwise. *griNz* it's a marvel how much faster i can be if i juz go out bare-faced. No rush, therefore won't be late... feels so good! muahahaha!!
And i was not late today! I even had time to have my lunch b4 he reached.. Today i learnt tat he like Erica Lee. Maybe it's becoz tat pic of her on Maxim is "interesting" la. We bought snacks from NTUC and hold concert at KBOX.. hahaa.. both of us went to KBOX for a while during K-Lunch. super cheap~ Then we went to Jurong Point, coz he got a "date" at nite and he wanna go home and prepare~ so CUTE!
We went to the Kopitiam outside and drink coffee like auntie/uncle.. then he left at ard 5pm, and i meet EL for food! again~ we always seem to be eating.. He came to fetch me from Jurong Point and since we can't think of where to eat. He actually drove to Old Airport Road. Kinda far for a snack i would think... but i'm not driving, he is. so i juz have to sit there and smile.. =P He had the Lao Fu Zi chay kway tiao and i have the tang yuan in peanut soup.. erm, i dunno the exact term for it la. But tat's one of my fav dessert..
After the quick "snack", he sent me home... coz he got another appointment to eat again at Jurong Point. LoL~ i juz have to laugh.. i think he din realised petrol is expensive? hmm... j/k! ;P
After his appointment, we actually met up again to go watch "A Lot Like Love" @ Jurong Point... gosh~ i've never hang out at Jurong Point so much before i think... But the movie is so so sweet~ i'm a sucker for romance. Plus ASHTON KUTCHER is such a cutie~
After movie and chit chat session, i'm finally home~ And realised now, my bloody computer is infected with worm - Mytob.hm... it juz keeps sending URL links to all my MSN contacts. sianz! MUST be my bro~ always downloading some crap~ shall scream at him tmr! too late and too tired now... juz tried AVG, but it's not really helping. i'll have to fix it tmr!
Tmr is my medical checkup at Alexandra Hospital. Hope everything is fine ba... Zzz...
the morning routine - wake up, wash up and get outta the house is getting shorter each day for me, coz i simply refuse to apply makeup now! heez... a very good way to make myself feel BETTER~ coz i've always feel tat putting on makeup is such a chore. my fren, Amy is always trying to convince me otherwise. *griNz* it's a marvel how much faster i can be if i juz go out bare-faced. No rush, therefore won't be late... feels so good! muahahaha!!
And i was not late today! I even had time to have my lunch b4 he reached.. Today i learnt tat he like Erica Lee. Maybe it's becoz tat pic of her on Maxim is "interesting" la. We bought snacks from NTUC and hold concert at KBOX.. hahaa.. both of us went to KBOX for a while during K-Lunch. super cheap~ Then we went to Jurong Point, coz he got a "date" at nite and he wanna go home and prepare~ so CUTE!
We went to the Kopitiam outside and drink coffee like auntie/uncle.. then he left at ard 5pm, and i meet EL for food! again~ we always seem to be eating.. He came to fetch me from Jurong Point and since we can't think of where to eat. He actually drove to Old Airport Road. Kinda far for a snack i would think... but i'm not driving, he is. so i juz have to sit there and smile.. =P He had the Lao Fu Zi chay kway tiao and i have the tang yuan in peanut soup.. erm, i dunno the exact term for it la. But tat's one of my fav dessert..
After the quick "snack", he sent me home... coz he got another appointment to eat again at Jurong Point. LoL~ i juz have to laugh.. i think he din realised petrol is expensive? hmm... j/k! ;P
After his appointment, we actually met up again to go watch "A Lot Like Love" @ Jurong Point... gosh~ i've never hang out at Jurong Point so much before i think... But the movie is so so sweet~ i'm a sucker for romance. Plus ASHTON KUTCHER is such a cutie~
After movie and chit chat session, i'm finally home~ And realised now, my bloody computer is infected with worm - Mytob.hm... it juz keeps sending URL links to all my MSN contacts. sianz! MUST be my bro~ always downloading some crap~ shall scream at him tmr! too late and too tired now... juz tried AVG, but it's not really helping. i'll have to fix it tmr!
Tmr is my medical checkup at Alexandra Hospital. Hope everything is fine ba... Zzz...
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
For Ladies
somehow this Friendster bulletin post by my fren, Amy juz strikes a cord... sigh~! i know, it's juz not meant to be... and i'll need the time to heal. it's not a problem with solutions or alternatives anymore... it's a FACT tat i gotta get over...
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1. If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
2. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
3. Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be.
4. Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.
5. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends" A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.
6. Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better!
7. The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
8. Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, Why would he treat you any differently?
9. Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
10. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up.
11. Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.
12. You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within.
13. Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are... even if he has more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
14. Never let a man define who you are.
15. Never borrow someone else's man. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.
16. A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you. All men are NOT dogs.
17. You should not be the one doing all the bending... compromise is two way street.
18. You need time to heal between relationships... there is nothing cute about baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.
19. You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you... a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals... look for someone complimentary... not supplementary.
20. Dating is fun... even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.
21. Make him miss you sometimes... when a man always know where you are, and your always readily available to him- he takes it for granted.
22. Never move into his mother's house. Never co-sign for a man. (Hallelujah, thank you Jesus!)
23. Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need. Keep him in your radar but get to know others.
Share this with other ladies... You'll make someone smile, another rethink her choices, and another woman prepare. They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them.
juz be happy alright...
i received a msg from him this morning... AND it juz messed me up again totally! i'm gng bonkers soon~ very very soon... crying my eyes out dun help my freaking troubled emotions much... why muz he affect me like tat?! at times i wonder, how can he affect me so much?! i'm trying my best to pick myself up now and it's NOT EASY!!!! why can't he help me out by not being so insensitive?
1st msg from him since my return is to ask me why on earth i write all those stuff i wrote... i realised i dun even have a right to miss him anymore.
sigh~ juz leave me alone since you've alr decided to leave me alright. let me find myself, recover and move on... YES I STILL MISS YOU!! but i juz wish you happiness now. Live ur life, BE HAPPY~!
he said he din check back on my blog. so most prob some moron did and "reported" to him? whoever it is, dun check back here if you dun like wat you're gng to read...
juz leave me alone... ='(
1st msg from him since my return is to ask me why on earth i write all those stuff i wrote... i realised i dun even have a right to miss him anymore.
sigh~ juz leave me alone since you've alr decided to leave me alright. let me find myself, recover and move on... YES I STILL MISS YOU!! but i juz wish you happiness now. Live ur life, BE HAPPY~!
he said he din check back on my blog. so most prob some moron did and "reported" to him? whoever it is, dun check back here if you dun like wat you're gng to read...
juz leave me alone... ='(
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
I MISS...
I MISS
sitting beside him
standing beside him
walking beside him
basically juz being beside him
I MISS
talking abt nothing with him
doing silly things with him
laughing at him, with him
I MISS
going to the gym together
him coming up behind me and put his arms ard me - telling me to concentrate on my reps
him whispering naughty things into my ears when i'm concentrating on my reps - distracting me
him "forcing" me to drink his protein drink - yucks!
watching him do his reps - gorgeous, delicious...
I MISS
seeing him in his black Adidas swimming trunks - haha!
watching him take forever to adjust his swimming goggles
swimming together with him
him carrying me in the pool - i'm weightless then
sharing earphones and listening to his iPod mini with him
basking in the sun with him
watching movie with him
shopping with him - altho the way he spends his money is shocking to me
I MISS
watching him drive - when he's concentrating, it's juz so sexy
annoying him by asking "where are we going?" the moment i get into the car
drinking with him - coz i know he'll take care of me
going for food together - be it breakfast, lunch, dinner or supper...
him always filling my bowl with food - irritating?
I MISS
showering with him
him washing my hair for me
giving him a massage
him giving me a massage
I MISS
cuddling up close to him
snuggling under the blanket with him
lying in his arms watching TV
lying in his arms listening to music
lying in his arms talking abt our day
basically juz lying in his arms makes me happy...
I MISS
him wrapping his arms ard me when we're in bed, pulling me close to him
falling asleep looking at him
falling asleep safe in his arms, holding each other tight
sleeping next to him
sleeping in his arms
waking up beside him
him sprawled on top of me when he wakes up to turn off the annoying alarm clock
I MISS
ironing his clothes for him in the morning
the hug and kiss we shared before he goes off to work in the morning
him telling me tat he misses me
him telling me tat he wanna see me
I MISS
feeling him close by my side
holding hands - his hand
leaning onto him when we're standing around
him hugging me tightly against his chest
nestling my head on the curve of his shoulder
resting my cheek on his chest
him holding me tenderly when i cry
I MISS
his voice
his messages
everything HIM
I MISS
sharing laughter with him
sharing kisses with him
sharing hugs with him
sharing looks with him - it all adds to the intimacy
I MISS the intimacy we once shared...
it's all over now -
I MISS YOU...
sitting beside him
standing beside him
walking beside him
basically juz being beside him
I MISS
talking abt nothing with him
doing silly things with him
laughing at him, with him
I MISS
going to the gym together
him coming up behind me and put his arms ard me - telling me to concentrate on my reps
him whispering naughty things into my ears when i'm concentrating on my reps - distracting me
him "forcing" me to drink his protein drink - yucks!
watching him do his reps - gorgeous, delicious...
I MISS
seeing him in his black Adidas swimming trunks - haha!
watching him take forever to adjust his swimming goggles
swimming together with him
him carrying me in the pool - i'm weightless then
sharing earphones and listening to his iPod mini with him
basking in the sun with him
watching movie with him
shopping with him - altho the way he spends his money is shocking to me
I MISS
watching him drive - when he's concentrating, it's juz so sexy
annoying him by asking "where are we going?" the moment i get into the car
drinking with him - coz i know he'll take care of me
going for food together - be it breakfast, lunch, dinner or supper...
him always filling my bowl with food - irritating?
I MISS
showering with him
him washing my hair for me
giving him a massage
him giving me a massage
I MISS
cuddling up close to him
snuggling under the blanket with him
lying in his arms watching TV
lying in his arms listening to music
lying in his arms talking abt our day
basically juz lying in his arms makes me happy...
I MISS
him wrapping his arms ard me when we're in bed, pulling me close to him
falling asleep looking at him
falling asleep safe in his arms, holding each other tight
sleeping next to him
sleeping in his arms
waking up beside him
him sprawled on top of me when he wakes up to turn off the annoying alarm clock
I MISS
ironing his clothes for him in the morning
the hug and kiss we shared before he goes off to work in the morning
him telling me tat he misses me
him telling me tat he wanna see me
I MISS
feeling him close by my side
holding hands - his hand
leaning onto him when we're standing around
him hugging me tightly against his chest
nestling my head on the curve of his shoulder
resting my cheek on his chest
him holding me tenderly when i cry
I MISS
his voice
his messages
everything HIM
I MISS
sharing laughter with him
sharing kisses with him
sharing hugs with him
sharing looks with him - it all adds to the intimacy
I MISS the intimacy we once shared...
it's all over now -
I MISS YOU...
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