Was surfing the net coz i'm feeling really bored on Sunday afternn. can't concentrate on my Finance notes. Just took a test from iVillage and here's the results. How accurate is it? I can't tell, really up to my friends to tell me instead... haha~
You scored 60%
Lone Wolf
You're an independent, intelligent free thinker who cherishes her individuality as well as her friendships -- people love being friends with you because you inspire them to self-reflection and self-improvement. Your friends may not see you every day, but they know you support them and care about them, and you share your knowledge and your gifts freely when asked. People look up to you because you understand yourself well, and you understand your own needs for stimulation and personal growth. As independent and forceful as you are, though, you may sometimes leave a buddy out in the cold. If you're worried your friends may find you aloof, improve your dependability with some Reliable Advisor qualities.
You scored 30%
Loving Sister
You're an affectionate, sensitive, intuitive sweetie who takes her friendships very seriously -- people love being friends with you because they know you understand them. You nurture your friends, which is a constantly-renewing gift: you're the first one to step forward with chicken soup if they're sick, tissue if they're crying, and a phone call if they're lonely. You love being cared for yourself, too -- not that you'd ever admit it. It's not surprising that you build such strong bonds with your friends, loyal and steadfast as you are. Be careful not to pamper your buddies too much, though, since it can drain you of much-needed energy and encourage otherwise good friends to take your big-hearted nature for granted. You might incorporate some Lone Wolf traits into unbalanced relationships that take more than they give.
You scored 10%
Bright Spark
You're a kick in the pants, an inspirer, an activator -- people love being friends with you because you're full of energy and fun ideas. You aim to make the people around you feel happy and comfortable, and you nearly always succeed. You have a wide circle of devoted buddies and admirers, and you take vicarious pleasure in their successes and accomplishments while inspiring your friends with your own passion for life. Although you may sometimes resent the pressure of being everybody's muse or ray of sunshine, you try not to let it show -- but do listen to those voices in your head that urge you to slow down and savor your friendships more fully. Consider deepening your friendships with a dose of the nurturing that your Loving Sister friends bring to their relationships.
You scored 0%
Reliable Advisor
You're accomplished, thoughtful, and generous, a font of wisdom and constructive criticism -- people love being friends with you because they know you've got their back. Your trustworthy nature and balanced, fair judgment make you a superb confidante and mediator, and while you may sometimes feel that your friends turn to you for advice about everything, you'd never let down anyone you cared about. Besides, your friends know your opinions are too valuable to do without! Your insight and loyalty are in high demand, but be sure to make friends aware that you're not just Old Faithful. You're the leading actress in your own life -- if some relationships make you feel more like the trusty sidekick, put a new face on your friendship by adopting the some of the attitude of your Bright Spark buddies.
What Type of Friend Are You?
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
Comments on some Interesting Statements
i'm gonna delete wat i wrote initially for this entry.
I wrote everything becoz i was upset for being labelled something which i'm not, therefore i decided to stand up for myself. I know that my point's been made and driven across clearly.
However, i dun wanna cause anyone any hurt/pain. In any case, i'm deleting this for him. I know tat he is vexed becoz he can't seem to handle the situation (coz he's really a soft-hearted person)
Quotes to Share
If you aren't good at loving yourself, you will have a difficult time loving anyone, since you'll resent the time and energy you give another person that you aren't even giving to yourself.
--Barbara de Angelis
Learn to get in touch with the silence within yourself and know that everything in this life has a purpose.
-- Elisabeth Kubler-Ross
Learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all.
-- Michael Masser and Linda Creed
Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to go. The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them.
-- Diana Goh
And there's always the classic -
If you love a person, let them go...
I wrote everything becoz i was upset for being labelled something which i'm not, therefore i decided to stand up for myself. I know that my point's been made and driven across clearly.
However, i dun wanna cause anyone any hurt/pain. In any case, i'm deleting this for him. I know tat he is vexed becoz he can't seem to handle the situation (coz he's really a soft-hearted person)
Quotes to Share
If you aren't good at loving yourself, you will have a difficult time loving anyone, since you'll resent the time and energy you give another person that you aren't even giving to yourself.
--Barbara de Angelis
Learn to get in touch with the silence within yourself and know that everything in this life has a purpose.
-- Elisabeth Kubler-Ross
Learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all.
-- Michael Masser and Linda Creed
Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to go. The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them.
-- Diana Goh
And there's always the classic -
If you love a person, let them go...
Saturday, March 26, 2005
I'm too SEXY for my blog!
juz joining in the fun of the "I'm too sexy for my blog" campaign~ haha... quite funny actually, considering the difference in effects for the same pose by different gender! (guys really look more hilarious than sexy!)
And, i decided to join in the fun! how do i look?! anyway, i think xiaxue is really sexy in that pose... ;)
Good Friday
it's GOOD FRIDAY today~ and basically, it's nothing good for me!
after handing in our IM report on Tues, we still have a presentation to prepare based on the report. We were so lucky to meet Rolls-Royce Regional Director, Mr. Jonathan Asherson in person even though he's so so busy! I think he's a really really nice person coz he actually took time out to reply our email qns on his way back to SG on the plane! Being such a busy man, we really appreciate this effort of his to help us out without expecting anything. Took a few "treasures" from him to attach to our report. hahaha~ actually it's juz his business card and a photo taken with him. BUT it's like so crucial to our report... I would love to post tat photo we took which made our day, but we promised him tat the photo will not be circulated or posted on the internet, so.... NO PHOTO!
i spent the whole day doing "art n craft"... hahaha... or it seems to be! actually, my project mates and me were preparing our presentation poster and we had to come out with the presentation content, lots of printing (of presentation slides), cutting funny shapes for the slides and pasting it in "artistic" style onto the black cardboard we bought... in the midst, there was lots of laughter becoz of ever FUNNY Eileen. I love her jokes, she's hilarious!
although i'm feeling pretty stress out becoz of this, i'm glad the process is fun coz i have fun-loving project mates~ They stayed over at my place till 1230am in order to complete the whole poster and to save them the cab fare home, i decided to send them all home. Coz all girls so i'm quite worried abt them going home so late... plus i wanna see whether daddy will lend me the car again after i crashed it so badly. And i found out tat daddy never blame me for the accident at all. he willingly lend me the car with only one comment "dun drive so fast"... NOW i know he really really love me. heh~ (i know it's not the way to gauge, but seriously, it shows!)
next week there's 3 major deadlines - Monday --> Finance Test; Tuesday --> IM Presentation; Friday --> LMS Report deadline. i got no time to breathe~ it's the 1st time we have 3 things clashed/cramped into one week.
I was quite happy tat i managed to take a break yesterday. WT and I had plans to go to the gym and then go swimming, unfortunately the JE gym is under renovation and we only know when we reached there... so it's like a wasted trip for him. Afterall, i'm not as keen on gym as him. And his usual workout place is @ California Fitness (Orchard) but to accompany me, we decide on JE gym. So I feel quite bad for like 5 min? In the end, we went swimming instead. Initially intended to really swim, but after a few laps, we SLACK! i guess we were in this comfortable mood to juz lie there and sun bathe... Needless to say, both of us were quite burnt. But i feel so good~ being in the water, being in the sun, being next to him... A great therapy for a stressful mind and tensed body... I feel so totally relaxed~ ;)
tmr i shall START STUDYING for my Finance test! i will not procrastinate! hahahahaa... like real~ i wonder what time i'm wake up tmr... hmmmmmm...
after handing in our IM report on Tues, we still have a presentation to prepare based on the report. We were so lucky to meet Rolls-Royce Regional Director, Mr. Jonathan Asherson in person even though he's so so busy! I think he's a really really nice person coz he actually took time out to reply our email qns on his way back to SG on the plane! Being such a busy man, we really appreciate this effort of his to help us out without expecting anything. Took a few "treasures" from him to attach to our report. hahaha~ actually it's juz his business card and a photo taken with him. BUT it's like so crucial to our report... I would love to post tat photo we took which made our day, but we promised him tat the photo will not be circulated or posted on the internet, so.... NO PHOTO!
i spent the whole day doing "art n craft"... hahaha... or it seems to be! actually, my project mates and me were preparing our presentation poster and we had to come out with the presentation content, lots of printing (of presentation slides), cutting funny shapes for the slides and pasting it in "artistic" style onto the black cardboard we bought... in the midst, there was lots of laughter becoz of ever FUNNY Eileen. I love her jokes, she's hilarious!
although i'm feeling pretty stress out becoz of this, i'm glad the process is fun coz i have fun-loving project mates~ They stayed over at my place till 1230am in order to complete the whole poster and to save them the cab fare home, i decided to send them all home. Coz all girls so i'm quite worried abt them going home so late... plus i wanna see whether daddy will lend me the car again after i crashed it so badly. And i found out tat daddy never blame me for the accident at all. he willingly lend me the car with only one comment "dun drive so fast"... NOW i know he really really love me. heh~ (i know it's not the way to gauge, but seriously, it shows!)
next week there's 3 major deadlines - Monday --> Finance Test; Tuesday --> IM Presentation; Friday --> LMS Report deadline. i got no time to breathe~ it's the 1st time we have 3 things clashed/cramped into one week.
I was quite happy tat i managed to take a break yesterday. WT and I had plans to go to the gym and then go swimming, unfortunately the JE gym is under renovation and we only know when we reached there... so it's like a wasted trip for him. Afterall, i'm not as keen on gym as him. And his usual workout place is @ California Fitness (Orchard) but to accompany me, we decide on JE gym. So I feel quite bad for like 5 min? In the end, we went swimming instead. Initially intended to really swim, but after a few laps, we SLACK! i guess we were in this comfortable mood to juz lie there and sun bathe... Needless to say, both of us were quite burnt. But i feel so good~ being in the water, being in the sun, being next to him... A great therapy for a stressful mind and tensed body... I feel so totally relaxed~ ;)
tmr i shall START STUDYING for my Finance test! i will not procrastinate! hahahahaa... like real~ i wonder what time i'm wake up tmr... hmmmmmm...
Monday, March 21, 2005
long overdued update on my birthday
it's abt time i start updating again~ haa...
finally i'm done with my International Management project, at least my part is done~ but will still have to go down to Rolls Royce office for the short visit tmr~ damn!
wanna talk abt how i spent my birthday coz afterall, it's MY SPECIAL DAY~ haa...
had a great dinner with WT on the eve of my birthday. he brought me to a really nice place with superb ambience~ and it's none other than The Cliff @ Sentosa Beaufort Hotel. The rating is 91/100 by asiacuisine with FULL MARKS for ambience... and yes, i agree totally with the full marks.
i get this sense of peace the moment i walked into the restaurant. i felt like a little princess. like i'm really special. The restaurant’s interior, decked with an amalgam of glass, light, stone and water, with sounds of crashing waves, and my fav. candlelight... i get this sense of joy recently juz staring at the flame of a candle. perhaps it's the romantic settings, or juz the mood tat nite, or the company? i juz keep thinking of the special joy i felt then, esp. recently where i'm feeling quite dreadful becoz of my projects.
i have this huge lavender candle tat Xavier gave me as a gift which i will light every nite before i sleep, getting tat odd sense of peace before sleeping... haa...
anyway, i'm touched by the fact tat a little joke abt candlelight dinner together over MSN and he made the effort to arrange everything and make it special for me.
On the actual day, i spent the huge part of the day rushing from place to place~ it's juz crazy~ but i was in the happy mood, so... everything's fine. wasted quite a bit of money coz i took cab wherever i went. being really stingy, i seldom waste money on cab fare these days but i juz wanna pamper myself tat day. haha! and I bought myself a new phone! muahaha... so happy!
happiest thing is, after a long long time (perhaps more than a year already), i finally got ALLl my family members to sit down together and have a nice dinner TOGETHER! seriously, i dunno why, but i was really happy... coz we almost never sit down and have dinner for the longest time. every time, it's at least 2 person not ard, either busy with work, or out doing their own things~ but this time, i got ALL oF THEM to sit down together and have birthday dinner with me! i guess it matters a lot to me! *triumphz*
went to my best fren, Amy's restaurant @ Sunset Way, coz i promised her tat i'll bring my family there. plus, i really miss the chilli crab there.. hehz~ ordered a lot of food, total 7 dishes inclusive of my craving - Chilli Crab and Yam Paste~ hahaa... Amy did the sweetest thing tat nite which totally surprised me and made me wanna cry. she bought me a cake without me knowing! i was really touched, considering it's really a last min thing tat she did juz to make me happy... i was grinning from ear to ear~! the fact tat my family members totally LOVE the cake, coz it's really delicious~ (it's from NYDC!) make me wanna hug Amy and KISS HER! hahaha... bet she din know, but it really means a lot to me... Amy dear, if you happen to read this, THANK YOU!! and thank you for the huge discount as well... lol!
after tat 2 very special days, it's TRIMOND's day~ haha... it means Tricia + Desmond! my dear god-bro! 9 yrs already! gosh~ you're getting OLD... on the 18th March 2005, we celebrate our 9th year of sister/brotherhood... he can't decide which one, coz i can be quite boy and he can be quite girl? lolx~
went shopping together for my birthday gift~ *gRinZ* wanted to get a set of bikini initially, but i can't find anything tat i absolutely love to have... so in the end, he suggested getting other stuff instead since i wanna get concealer and blusher. And so, we made our way to MAC counter at Tangs and got my concealer and blusher~ hahaha... and my dumbo bro gotta say, "din know something tat gals put on the face to look like monkey's ass can be so costly"~ sLAP YOUR FACE AR! we makeup so pretty also becoz let you guys see k~ ermz actually, no, it's for myself to feel more confident abt myself sometimes... but still.... arrgghh~ hahaha...
I love him to bits~ sibling kinda love of coz... we went to Modestos to have dinner and it was fabulous as well. i guessed it's becoz the company was great. We had fun snapping photos of each other coz i juz got a camera phone. =P i know i'm a bit slow when it comes to gadgets, mobile phones and such, but i'm still excited over my new phone... *bleahz* i made him sit still and let my try my phone out~ it's so funny!
after dinner we went to Riviera to have some drinks... i kinda dread walking in at first, coz i was working there as PR before and now i'm gng back as customer. i feel weird and uncomfortable. But after i sit down, everything was juz fun! The regulars there still recognise me and came over to chat, bought me drinks and time passed so quickly!
although i dun miss clubbing, but the feeling of immersing in the music (or is it noise?), drinks and endless chatters is SO SO GOOD (like an addiction cured?), and really helps me de-stress. there was this crazy guy who was toasting everyone tequila shots coz he had a bottle. And i end up downing 7 shots tat nite. all in all, everything is juz fun~
i was dead-beaten by the time i reached home coz i'm used to tucking in early these days - alright ard 12mn, i sleep, consider early right? sat and sun was a drag coz i was doing project work and never step outta the house~ and since i juz finished my work and i can't get to sleep coz i'm feeling so tensed, i decided to update.
i took this from my fren, Eric/Kai's blog... super meaningful...
Quote of the day :
No one feels another's grief, no one understands another's joy. People imagine they can reach one another. In reality, they only pass each other by...
will you be juz a passerby?
finally i'm done with my International Management project, at least my part is done~ but will still have to go down to Rolls Royce office for the short visit tmr~ damn!
wanna talk abt how i spent my birthday coz afterall, it's MY SPECIAL DAY~ haa...
had a great dinner with WT on the eve of my birthday. he brought me to a really nice place with superb ambience~ and it's none other than The Cliff @ Sentosa Beaufort Hotel. The rating is 91/100 by asiacuisine with FULL MARKS for ambience... and yes, i agree totally with the full marks.
i get this sense of peace the moment i walked into the restaurant. i felt like a little princess. like i'm really special. The restaurant’s interior, decked with an amalgam of glass, light, stone and water, with sounds of crashing waves, and my fav. candlelight... i get this sense of joy recently juz staring at the flame of a candle. perhaps it's the romantic settings, or juz the mood tat nite, or the company? i juz keep thinking of the special joy i felt then, esp. recently where i'm feeling quite dreadful becoz of my projects.
i have this huge lavender candle tat Xavier gave me as a gift which i will light every nite before i sleep, getting tat odd sense of peace before sleeping... haa...
anyway, i'm touched by the fact tat a little joke abt candlelight dinner together over MSN and he made the effort to arrange everything and make it special for me.
On the actual day, i spent the huge part of the day rushing from place to place~ it's juz crazy~ but i was in the happy mood, so... everything's fine. wasted quite a bit of money coz i took cab wherever i went. being really stingy, i seldom waste money on cab fare these days but i juz wanna pamper myself tat day. haha! and I bought myself a new phone! muahaha... so happy!
happiest thing is, after a long long time (perhaps more than a year already), i finally got ALLl my family members to sit down together and have a nice dinner TOGETHER! seriously, i dunno why, but i was really happy... coz we almost never sit down and have dinner for the longest time. every time, it's at least 2 person not ard, either busy with work, or out doing their own things~ but this time, i got ALL oF THEM to sit down together and have birthday dinner with me! i guess it matters a lot to me! *triumphz*
went to my best fren, Amy's restaurant @ Sunset Way, coz i promised her tat i'll bring my family there. plus, i really miss the chilli crab there.. hehz~ ordered a lot of food, total 7 dishes inclusive of my craving - Chilli Crab and Yam Paste~ hahaa... Amy did the sweetest thing tat nite which totally surprised me and made me wanna cry. she bought me a cake without me knowing! i was really touched, considering it's really a last min thing tat she did juz to make me happy... i was grinning from ear to ear~! the fact tat my family members totally LOVE the cake, coz it's really delicious~ (it's from NYDC!) make me wanna hug Amy and KISS HER! hahaha... bet she din know, but it really means a lot to me... Amy dear, if you happen to read this, THANK YOU!! and thank you for the huge discount as well... lol!
after tat 2 very special days, it's TRIMOND's day~ haha... it means Tricia + Desmond! my dear god-bro! 9 yrs already! gosh~ you're getting OLD... on the 18th March 2005, we celebrate our 9th year of sister/brotherhood... he can't decide which one, coz i can be quite boy and he can be quite girl? lolx~
went shopping together for my birthday gift~ *gRinZ* wanted to get a set of bikini initially, but i can't find anything tat i absolutely love to have... so in the end, he suggested getting other stuff instead since i wanna get concealer and blusher. And so, we made our way to MAC counter at Tangs and got my concealer and blusher~ hahaha... and my dumbo bro gotta say, "din know something tat gals put on the face to look like monkey's ass can be so costly"~ sLAP YOUR FACE AR! we makeup so pretty also becoz let you guys see k~ ermz actually, no, it's for myself to feel more confident abt myself sometimes... but still.... arrgghh~ hahaha...
I love him to bits~ sibling kinda love of coz... we went to Modestos to have dinner and it was fabulous as well. i guessed it's becoz the company was great. We had fun snapping photos of each other coz i juz got a camera phone. =P i know i'm a bit slow when it comes to gadgets, mobile phones and such, but i'm still excited over my new phone... *bleahz* i made him sit still and let my try my phone out~ it's so funny!
after dinner we went to Riviera to have some drinks... i kinda dread walking in at first, coz i was working there as PR before and now i'm gng back as customer. i feel weird and uncomfortable. But after i sit down, everything was juz fun! The regulars there still recognise me and came over to chat, bought me drinks and time passed so quickly!
although i dun miss clubbing, but the feeling of immersing in the music (or is it noise?), drinks and endless chatters is SO SO GOOD (like an addiction cured?), and really helps me de-stress. there was this crazy guy who was toasting everyone tequila shots coz he had a bottle. And i end up downing 7 shots tat nite. all in all, everything is juz fun~
i was dead-beaten by the time i reached home coz i'm used to tucking in early these days - alright ard 12mn, i sleep, consider early right? sat and sun was a drag coz i was doing project work and never step outta the house~ and since i juz finished my work and i can't get to sleep coz i'm feeling so tensed, i decided to update.
i took this from my fren, Eric/Kai's blog... super meaningful...
Quote of the day :
No one feels another's grief, no one understands another's joy. People imagine they can reach one another. In reality, they only pass each other by...
will you be juz a passerby?
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
Sloganize your names~
got this slogans from The Advertising Slogan Generator
all generated from my name and nickname~ hahahaha...
Fall Into The Tricia.
There's First Love, and There's Tricia Love.
It's the Bright One, it's the Right One, that's Tricia.
Get More From Starlett.
so interesting eh~ sloganize ur names there as well and see what you get~ lol!
all generated from my name and nickname~ hahahaha...
Fall Into The Tricia.
There's First Love, and There's Tricia Love.
It's the Bright One, it's the Right One, that's Tricia.
Get More From Starlett.
so interesting eh~ sloganize ur names there as well and see what you get~ lol!
starLett's SPECIAL day!
know wat?!?!?!
MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING~!!!
muahahahahaa~~ *grinz*
i wanna get a new handphone for myself as a birthday gift... =D
my frens will be getting me a voucher from Orchard Hello! and i'll top up the amount... I think they're so smart~ AND so thoughtful~!! coz they'll help me save some money... lolz! ;P
MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING~!!!
muahahahahaa~~ *grinz*
i wanna get a new handphone for myself as a birthday gift... =D
my frens will be getting me a voucher from Orchard Hello! and i'll top up the amount... I think they're so smart~ AND so thoughtful~!! coz they'll help me save some money... lolz! ;P
IT Show @ Suntec coming~
haven't been in the mood to blog... still trying my best to juggle work and studies.
A fren reminded me tat my 1st priority NOW is to be a good student, then a workaholic~ shld not be the other way round...i know... but still, i'm neglecting my studies coz i can't resist the money~
some stuff pissed me off, like i still haven't got any pay (at all) for any of the freelance promoting work i've done in Year 2005!!! and it's March already~ frustrating!!
haven't got much stuff to update coz i've been putting aside my social life~ =S coz these days i rather come home and rest then go hang out after work. and blogging abt work dun really excites me... haha~
Just completed the Career Fair 2005 @ Suntec City for JobStreet.com over the weekends and it was great fun~ i got a free portrait drawn! and some freebies~ and i got my own career profiling done FOR FREE! usually will cost $69 for the analysis...
can't say i'm very pleased with my results, coz it shows tat i'm not a easy person to work with, perceived as headstrong when challenged, not a good listener, and i'm LOUSY at planning with no consistency... of coz there are strengths shown in the results, but i guessed, i rather concentrate on my weaknesses! =(
recently, i let a stylist from NEXT cut my hair for me. i got to know him from Friendster. He needs a hair model, and i need a new haircut, so i agreed. Today his colleague help me colour my hair. I did a highlight, not very obvious, but i like the subtle colour peeking through~ afterall, everything is free, so who am i to complain right? plus they really put in effort~ thanks!! =)
anyway, i'm gng to work this weekend for the IT Show 2005 under Creative Technology as Zen Micro gal again~ hope i'll have as much fun as the last time... *grinz*
A fren reminded me tat my 1st priority NOW is to be a good student, then a workaholic~ shld not be the other way round...i know... but still, i'm neglecting my studies coz i can't resist the money~
some stuff pissed me off, like i still haven't got any pay (at all) for any of the freelance promoting work i've done in Year 2005!!! and it's March already~ frustrating!!
haven't got much stuff to update coz i've been putting aside my social life~ =S coz these days i rather come home and rest then go hang out after work. and blogging abt work dun really excites me... haha~
Just completed the Career Fair 2005 @ Suntec City for JobStreet.com over the weekends and it was great fun~ i got a free portrait drawn! and some freebies~ and i got my own career profiling done FOR FREE! usually will cost $69 for the analysis...
can't say i'm very pleased with my results, coz it shows tat i'm not a easy person to work with, perceived as headstrong when challenged, not a good listener, and i'm LOUSY at planning with no consistency... of coz there are strengths shown in the results, but i guessed, i rather concentrate on my weaknesses! =(
recently, i let a stylist from NEXT cut my hair for me. i got to know him from Friendster. He needs a hair model, and i need a new haircut, so i agreed. Today his colleague help me colour my hair. I did a highlight, not very obvious, but i like the subtle colour peeking through~ afterall, everything is free, so who am i to complain right? plus they really put in effort~ thanks!! =)
anyway, i'm gng to work this weekend for the IT Show 2005 under Creative Technology as Zen Micro gal again~ hope i'll have as much fun as the last time... *grinz*
Tuesday, March 01, 2005
Lost Love
last nite, a msg came through to me and i feel the heaviness of my heart. then i realised tat i've always hold him dear and close to my heart. every time i received a msg from him, i'll think of the times we spent together - Sentosa, clubbing, trip to Genting, watching soccer, shopping, supper, movies, reading books lying next to each other, slack at home... 2yrs of our lives. Funny how we always have the selective memories and remember the happy times, and forget the stuff which upsets us then after a long time...
and every time, the image of him leaving my house tat fateful day will juz appear in my mind. where i know tat we're gng nowhere and i finally decided to let him go, let him go in search of his happiness. It was at tat particular moment where all i want is him finding his happiness. I never thot i'll think tat way until tat moment.
And another 2yrs plus have gone by. All it takes is a simple greeting from him, a simple "hello, how are you?" every now and then as a fren, to get me thinkin abt us again. I know tat both of us have changed after we part. At least, i know i've changed a lot.
That phase of my life is one of my best. He is always there for me - providing companionship, advice, emotional support, and most importantly love. I feel balanced then. after he left, i was lost. for the longest time, i was constantly searching for myself, lost. i tried and look for love, but all in the wrong places. i treated guys wrong as well. i admit, i've broke a few hearts in the last 2yrs coz i really dunno wat i want anymore.
Recently, i came to terms with issues. I learnt to embrace solitary. i came to realised tat i can be alone without feeling lonely anymore.
Now i know, i juz wanna be single, and left alone. i've always been in denial tat that breakup hurts me deeply and affected me in a way tat i can't explain myself. i simply ignore it and moved on, bring abt a change in me tat i cannot understand myself. i become confused.
i need tat time to heal myself. i need the time and energy to love myself a little more. else, no matter who i'm with, i'll not be happy coz i'll be constantly searching for "him" in the new guy,which will not be fair.
i know i'll always have him in my heart and i'm very glad to know tat he feels the same abt me.
i'm glad he found his happiness. but i can't help missing him whenever his msgs come thru.
and every time, the image of him leaving my house tat fateful day will juz appear in my mind. where i know tat we're gng nowhere and i finally decided to let him go, let him go in search of his happiness. It was at tat particular moment where all i want is him finding his happiness. I never thot i'll think tat way until tat moment.
And another 2yrs plus have gone by. All it takes is a simple greeting from him, a simple "hello, how are you?" every now and then as a fren, to get me thinkin abt us again. I know tat both of us have changed after we part. At least, i know i've changed a lot.
That phase of my life is one of my best. He is always there for me - providing companionship, advice, emotional support, and most importantly love. I feel balanced then. after he left, i was lost. for the longest time, i was constantly searching for myself, lost. i tried and look for love, but all in the wrong places. i treated guys wrong as well. i admit, i've broke a few hearts in the last 2yrs coz i really dunno wat i want anymore.
Recently, i came to terms with issues. I learnt to embrace solitary. i came to realised tat i can be alone without feeling lonely anymore.
Now i know, i juz wanna be single, and left alone. i've always been in denial tat that breakup hurts me deeply and affected me in a way tat i can't explain myself. i simply ignore it and moved on, bring abt a change in me tat i cannot understand myself. i become confused.
i need tat time to heal myself. i need the time and energy to love myself a little more. else, no matter who i'm with, i'll not be happy coz i'll be constantly searching for "him" in the new guy,which will not be fair.
i know i'll always have him in my heart and i'm very glad to know tat he feels the same abt me.
i'm glad he found his happiness. but i can't help missing him whenever his msgs come thru.
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