TRICIA SMILEY~! =)

This is gonna be a long long entry, coz i haven't been blogging and finally today, i'm in the mood~! heh heh~ ;D

Alot of things happened since my last update, mostly not tat happy stuff... But let's talk abt the happy stuff coz i'm brightening up finally after a gloomy period... =)

Last monday, I finally went to satisfy my craving for sushi! hahaha~ had a fantastic sushi buffet with Alex @ Suki Sushi, Cineleisure... good stuff~ and we went to watched Kungfu Hustle as well... I like the show! great comedy~

Then I took a break from work and everything (even meeting frens) on tuesday... gave myself the long needed rest and stayed home to bum.

Had a busy day on wednesday though... Went to Panasonic Building to get the filter bag for the washing machine at home! i feel like an auntie lor~ but they dun have stock. sigh~ wasted trip. Then i went on to IKEA to buy Tindra candles for my poly gal-frens... When i was there, naturally i see other nice stuff and grab them as well~ impulsive shopper~! i got a wastepaper basket and half a dozen wine glasses as well...

As for the gifts, i have a special meaning to give them candles although they might find it weird. lol~ I see them as the lights of my life, helping me through during moments of darkness. I know they'll always be there to help if i meet with any problems. I just have to ask... They accept me for who i am even though they might not always agree with my way of living~

Giving them candles is just a way to show that i'll try my best to be their light too. And when they feel down, they can light up the candle, see the flame flicker and sooth their feeling... Gals! SEE! the usefulness of a candle~ hahaha!

That nite i went to meet Weifun for some drinks at her house after work. I wonder why but i juz feel like drinking tat nite, plus feel like meeting up... Her sis, Weisum have the greatest patience! she made a card from scratch. cut the cardboard, cut out a few Winnie the Pooh from wrapping paper so as to make the 3D effect...

kaoz~ i was telling Weifun, dun gimme anything self-crafted, coz even though i'll find it very nice initially, after the 1st half hour, the thing will most likely find its way to a hidden corner in my room, or worse still, in the wastebin the next time i clean my room... It's doesn't mean i dun appreciate the effort put in the self-craft gifts, but erm... for me, these things are USELESS~ =(

Watched another great movie - Nobody Knows, on thursday~ with Shawn, Priscilla and Paris. It's a very sad and touching story~ I was sobbing at the end... but i'm a crybaby, so maybe tat's why la.

Then it's NEW YEAR EVE!

and I was working..... =(

was working as Piper Heidsieck Champagne Promo gal at Aranda Country Club at Pasir Ris~ heck, i live at Jurong West... BUT~ something tat made me VERY VERY HAPPY that nite! My dad lent me his car~ =) *glowing* maybe my fren is right, perhaps my dad reads my blog as well... muahahaha!!!!

I wanna thank my dad for the TRUST~ muack!!!! I LOVE YOU~!! =D

And so, after working, i had fun cruising the streets... I went to Woodlands to look for my poly frens, coz they had a gathering at Guan's house, then i went to pick up my guy for supper at Thomson, then after supper, we went somewhere near his place to talk, then send him home, then go home~ the constant drizzling tat nite did not spoil my mood! coz i was just too happy~ =P

I reckon 2005 is gonna be a good year, coz finally my dad trust me with his car... duhz~ but he shld have trust me a long long time back lor~ =P

and then, it's ........

HAPPY NEW YEAR~ WELCOME YEAR 2005!

I spent new year day sleeping till 2pm~ =) then i went to work... like very no life hor~ But then, new year, life still go on ma! so... WORK LA! after work, i went home to SLEEP. coz i was in pain... cramps~ it's usually at this kinda time tat i wish i'm a GUY~ duhz!

I invited the gals over for steamboat over at my place on Sunday~ and of coz i invited their bfs as well... we prepared a lot of food and had a great time juz playing with the food and eating. Then after food, we watched Kung Pow~ it's such a crappy show. everyone shld watch it coz it's so so so funny! But i dunno where Dawei got it from, i think it's on sale ba. The one he brought to my house is a pirated one, he burn it himself.

When Weifun comes in the evening, we had a 2nd round of food. they were all screaming tat they're very very full, but they juz continue to stuff food into their mouth~ hahahahahaaha! I bought a bottle of very nice red wine tat day and so, they finally have a change of mind and say red wine is not tat bad afterall~ (they dun usually drink and to them, red wine sucks!) We had some beer after we finished the wine...

Steamboat on a cold cold day with some light drinking and a group of close frens~ BEST IN DA WORLD~!!! =D

Daddy willingly handed me the keys again~ *continue to glow* so i sent them all home late at nite... After reaching home, i was quite excited coz the next day is my youngest bro's 1st day in Hua Yi Sec Sch! I was busy checking his bag, his wallet, keys, his sch uniform, badge etc... Just in case he wakes up in the morning and can't find them. But he himself dun seem tat excited~ =P

yesterday was spent at the Jurong East Library accompanying my boy... He got some assignment due today but he din have all the references he needed for his essay~ lazy bum! After reading his essay, i think he writes well. At least a whole lot better than me, coz my english sucks~ Met Anthony for supper last nite, actually it's my dinner, coz i took a nap and slept past dinner time. had a good time catching up.

Today is the 1st day of sch... but i din look forward to it. It's not like poly days anymore, where i'll look forward to sch reopen after a long vacation. Reason being, sch days or not, i feel juz as slack... Actually, i feel busier during the vacation! =X

Studying in SIM is different from anywhere else i think. It's almost like part-time study even though i'm taking a full-time course. This semester, i'll only be taking 3 modules, therefore only gng to sch for 3 x 3hrs lectures every week... Schedule sucks~! Basically, i'll only have lectures on monday nite, tuesday morning and wed afternn. Sighz~! i predict myself wasting my life away if i dun get another part-time job soon. ;P

Perhaps becoz i'm not tat close to my SIM classmates as well, therefore, i dun look forward to attending class. Moreover, i know my best fren, Amy is not attending class today, coz she's on MC... makes it worse~ haha...

I was late as usual......

i'm working from 1pm to 11pm @ Dhoby Ghaut today~ actually, i'm typing all this at work now, coz i'm bored~ =)

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As for the not so happy stuff of the past few days~ sigh~ rather not talk abt it... only thing i can say, these days, i hate to quarrel, especially abt small small stuff, misunderstandings, miscommunication and discussion abt my character... But we've been quarrelling every single nite~ and basically over nothing impt. After the new year eve nite incident, i seriously feel like giving up... I'm not happy coz i feel like i'm trapped. I would very much like to try and attempt at this relationship, but i do value my freedom very much coz i'm very used to it already. Heck, i'm not even allow to tell tat we're together... somehow, i think it's such a joke...

I dun wanna become too dependent on my guy, so i will not sit and wait at home for his calls to come and go out only when he wanna meet me... I got a life and i dun intend to change it too dramatically. I will hang out with my frens whenever i feel like hanging out unless he got the time to meet me, so dun expect me to sit at home stupidly waiting like a silly girl~ And if my partner can't accept my character and constantly feel the need to change me, i would rather he find another gal. someone with a personality tat he likes... coz i'm Tricia and MY character makes me Tricia... ;)

And yes, i'm back to my cheerful self again~! coz i've come to terms abt everything, i juz wanna be HAPPY... and be MYSELF~! ;))))