Part one: Before...

alright. i wanna write abt HIM, meaning WT...

let's start with the timeline... (note: this is gonna be a long long blog, juz wanna write everything down. Dun read if you're ain't interested anyway)

Part one: BEFORE WE GOT TOGETHER

i gotta know him becoz he's a stylist-to-be then and he need hairmodels to let him cut and show his directors. on 19th Feb, He sent me a msg thru Friendster and it was juz something very straight forward - a simple request to let him style my hair.

at tat time, i know it's juz a mass message to all the gals he thinks is suitable for being his hairmodels. my thinking was, "heck, FOC haircut, why not?" i added him on MSN and wanna call him back coz i'm interested in the offer. then we fixed an appointment on 21st Feb @ 1030am for my new hairdo... That was the 1st time i see him in person.

WT is not someone very good-looking but he has his charm. And i'm appreciative of him putting in effort to try and make my hairdo suit my criteria and yet nice at the same time. I was curious abt him coz he's someone new i meet. tat day i din notice him in a romantic kinda way, but still, i was curious abt him coz i'm interested to know why a guy will wanna be a hairstylist. So i asked him lotsa qns when he's trying to concentrate on my hair. found out he lives very near me, only a street away, which is like 5min walk...

I usually get pple approaching me on the street, or thru friend's intro, or approached while i'm working on an event. becoz this is the 1st time, someone approached me thru Friendster as model, i find the whole situation amusing, hence i was smiling the whole way through the session. plus the fact tat i'm always smiling anyway...

He was a distraction to my life then. Coz i juz ended something with Xavier. And i was very busy with work, sch and every other committments i have. I dun have the time to go out and socialise. So he was a nice distraction.

after the haircut, i forgot abt him until later part in the day, a fren at gym commented tat i look different tat day, like more radiant. I was amused and told him i juz had a new haircut and it's FREE. my fren laughed and say, "thank ur stylist then" And so, i did. I sms-ed him and say my thanks.

he replied and say something which sets me grinning. WT said something like,"hey, thks for ur time, you looked great even without the haircut. remb to ask me out for supper." gosh~ i'm juz a sucker for compliments. instantly, i categorized him under "potential prey". i won't even deny the fact tat i do prey on guys. i dun like to wait for a predator and waste time. i can go out and get my own. if i like him, i go for him... i dun wait. "Potential prey" means, i might prey on him some time in the further, when i'm out from my trough.

But at tat time, i wasn't thinking of it YET. i was still in my trough.

on the 22nd Feb and 24th Feb nites, we had short chats over MSN. Talk abt nothing in particular, but there was the "why is sweety so tired?" and the "Hi pretty"... haha~ smooth one...

25th Feb, i was slaving thru my LMS minor report when he came online and we had this short flirt? was talking abt gng to the gym and swimming before i go to work at nite. he said he wanna go swimming pool to peep at me... i find tat CUTE~ haha... then i asked for songs, coz i dun dare to d/l from websites anymore, so frens to frens is safer. Every new net fren, i asked them for songs~ ;P he wants my pics in exchange for songs~ i was AMUSED and asked him, why he wants my pics. He said - so that he can look at it when he miss me... LoL! no problem for me, since i post my own pics almost everywhere anyway. So tat started the exchange...

he sent me a particular piece - Air (BWV 991 in C Minor) and said it's very suitable for candlelight dinner. Then he asked me out for candlelight dinner on my birthday. which to me, is a very sweet gesture. afterall i dun even know him. And it juz makes me feel tat he is interested. And i was amused again~ lol... seriously, sometimes, i can never fathom why guys are interested in me?!?! All my close frens can't either~ But of coz i agreed...

And i conveniently forget abt him after tat chat till days later on 3rd Mar. I was too darn busy with a lot of other stuff then. Esp. on the 1st Mar, i was super down, coz my ex-bf, YM contacted me and i was super affected. i wanted to be single and left alone for the 1st time in my life. i really wanted to have the time to heal my wounds and think abt life. BUT WT was juz hovering ard... he was a nice distraction.

he msged me asking whether i wanna meet him on 15th Mar (eve of my bday) or 16th Mar (exact day) for the dinner. I said anything, juz inform me early, coz i have other dates. it was only juz a dinner to me then~ We settled on 15th for the dinner date. He said he will fetch me from sch on Mon nite coz he wanna "warm up". i thot he was kidding, i replied "watever"

We left things as it is. the date was on, but he din push too hard and kept calling or msg-ing. he was cool abt the issue. I like... the game. The hot and cold treatment works for me. i got more interested. I went on with my life and continuing working till the point of exhaustion.

On the 7th Mar, i received a sms from him asking whether i'm free to do highlight for my hair the day after. Yes, i'm a cheapo. It's FOC. i was considering only becoz my schedule is darn tight. i said, can if it's after 5pm. Then he said ok! i was hitting myself on the head then. coz i seriously dun wanna travel down to Serangoon for hair colour! I had to agree... only consolation for myself - It's gonna be FREE. :P

I know it's his OFF day on Tues, so it'll be his colleague doing the colour for me. He said he'll go down and look for me. i burst out laughing. coz off day, go back to salon for wat?! so freaking far somemore... Jurong West to Serangoon leh! siaoz~ But he say he'll be there... so watever~ i juz want the FOC hairdo to come out NICE... else will really be a waste of my time.

That nite, i was slaving thru my project again and he came online, so there's the distraction from my project again. he sent me a song and tell me to pay attn to the lyrics, Morrissey - I Love You Baby. We talked abt stuff tat nite tat sets me thinking abt stuff. Not abt him, abt myself. he said i'm simple by nature, but i've had been disturbed by things, hindered by some stuff from the past, and tell me not to complicate myself. He also said, "God sent me to help you and protect you from things" i was speechless tat someone can think so highly of himself... At the same time, i was impressed and amazed by him.

We talked abt stupid things like, wat colour to do on my hair the next day. He said same colour as his, then when we go out, can have couple hair. I laughed. I like guys who can make me laugh. i jokingly said, "let's have couple tees, couple pendants and look like identical twins." He find my idea abt couple pendants interesting. Then, he mentioned couple rings... I laughed again. I've never been in a relationship where we have to wear couple rings~ guessed things never got tat serious ever for me...

He told me, he's not a good person also and so he won't actually expect anything from me. He said he dun have confidence in relationship... i agree totally. so best is dun get into one. Tat's like so cool to hear then. No strings attached, juz casual dating. Juz have fun when we're out. phew~ a relief when i hear tat.... all the while, i was being called "his princess", awww....

Following day, on the 8th Mar, he did appear at the salon while i do my hair after all. We talked a little. Was a little touched tat he really turn up. Was fussed over by him when he was there. felt a little pampered and it's a nice feeling.

on the 9th Mar, he msg-ed me asking abt my day and tat he miss me. i decided to ask him why he's paying so much attn to me. I was out from my trough. it's time to play the game once again? He din really say anything, he juz asked me whether i wanna go for a walk at nite. i thought, why not? and agreed. He said he'll come fetch me when he's home.

That nite, was the 1st time we go out together. He came and fetch me and he drove all the way to Changi Village. we both live at Jurong West. Till now, i dunno why tat location. But i was hoping it's becoz when he asked me "where shld we go?", and i replied, "dun ask me, else i'll say somewhere ridiculous like watch planes fly off at Changi." He indulged in my desire to play on a swing and we went to the playground. everything seems so carefree tat nite. We din talk much coz he's a quiet person and i dun feel like talking. We juz walked beside each other. Sat beside each other at the Changi beach. Drink our beer and stare at the horizon - for ships, for planes, for satellites, for clouds, and for twinkling stars.

after a while of sitting in comfortable silence, we actually went to the Old Changi Hospital which is rumoured to be haunted. I was scare. I've always been scare of this kinda places. But i feel safe with him. He guide me along while we explore the place in the middle of the nite. It was ard 2am? i cling on to him, coz i was SCARE! He din seem to mind...

he got a few phonecalls tat nite. he din answer them. then he answered one when he was driving back to our area. he sounds agitated and after putting down, he said IT'S HIS EX-GF. i smiled and say dun have to tell me wor~ at tat point of time, i wasn't interested to know.

We decided to go back to our area and sit at the coffeeshop to drink beer (like auntie/uncle?). He challenged me 4 bottles each. I laugh at his silly challenge, but took it up anyway. I know i was not up to tat. but i dun care and say see who will go down 1st. We really did drink tat nite. But he puked after 1.5 bottles of Heineken. I downed my 2 bottles and try my best to remain sober. Even though i din puke, i know i'm quite gone. We were drinking so fast. haa... We stayed out till 4am+ tat nite.

i know i'm the type of gal who will do anything to my fancy when i'm in the mood or guts to. i was half-drunk. i like him. i feel like kissing him. And so i did... in any case, if he push me away, i can say i was drunk. But he did not. The kiss was exhilarating and intoxicating (for me at least). We were all over each other. And then, i ended it, opened my door and stepped in. I was guilty, coz i juz promised myself i wanna be alone.


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